bad day

28/4/2009 1:54 am

just post 'far away'..feel like crying...why should i face all this?

today(yesterday precisely) called USM one more time,i called few times since that day i missed the exam..the person said she try her best to help me after i explain and begging...

yesterday,all company record that i called for whole day gone at the minutes before i go home.most probably due to the pc...man!!!what should i do on thursday's report?how m i going to continue on Thursday?

really feeling down,esp think of her...

bad day..

far away

28/4/2009 1:44am

listening nickleback'far away' now..wana online and read something for tomorrow class actually..
dunno how and dunno why,open facebook without realising..
found her facebook..
i knew i will feeling down if i see it,i knew i am not dare enough..but can't endure the curious..open her profile..
piece and piece appearing on my eye,her&dearest bf together photo..
i thaught i got away from her,i thaught i had over her..

not really...

feeling come and gone since i was in form 2,when i am in form 5,i am very sure that i have fallen for her.
thaught that just a normal crush that will be gone...

not really...

year after year,i still feel that my heart just can't get out from her till now...
that day someone told me sometimes i will make her angry easily,coz she really take me as a really gud fren..

but..

how much i wish i could tell her,i dun wanna juz be ur fren..

'i love you, i love you all along,i miss you;far away for far too long...'

me & her...just so far away...

bad day..

19/4/2009 02:10am

today is a bad day..i mean yesterday..

Ujian Munsyi today,unfortunately di sit for it..why??dunno my fault or who's...but no one can blame.i already prepare for the test and leaving home earlier(as i thaught but many people think i'm still leaving home too late)...so actually got that area on time.but the problem with looking for the school..dunno izit my faith not to sit for the test.i tried my best to ask for the way..but keep looking and turning inside the area,still can't get.finally got the right person to ask,but it's exactly 12pm which the test end..how?what can i do?go in and beg them?but there's my fren&others waiting their parents..not feeling comfortable for the absence of the test..what to do???haiz..

juz came back from KLIA..sei yi juz went back cape town..suddenly there is not feeling right..have to get use to the life without them..so are they..everything gone back normal...from their expression..i know,no one wana separate..but what to do?there's life...the moment they stepping in the custom,i saw my family crying,i knew sei yi wana cry too..actually even me feel like crying..ya,really hard to face..10 person went to airport and 7 person went home..hate that feeling..anyway,juz wish everything will juz go right..many thing that playing in my mind now..hard to express with words..

1/4 had a fool by God..drove the mazda and something wrong with it till i have to miss a criminal class.cz the car out of battery(i think) and juz cab't start the engine,what is worst is it's in the middle in the carpark,after finally got started the engine,the engine died again middle of the road..that's a funny experience to me...

haiz...have a lot feeling and hard to express...juz gambate lew cho kang!!!do ur best in ur life,others,jz leave it to the God,as long as u did whatever u can!

haiz..

16/4/2009 11.50pm

haiz...today have a quarrel with jennyu..nope,correctly,he angry with me...
that's not first time we have problem...his fault?or my fault this time??
haiz..luckily it's over and settled..
apparently,he said 'v r not suitable together','i lie to him'...etc..haiz..
now he said he's ok now..jz angry with her gf.but wat her fault actually??
wana ask jiaxi to bring me to his house.but settled before call to jiaxi..so,hopefully it's really setteld..
and call jiaxi after that,told him not going out tonight..haiz..dunno how to express..

just wish everything settle....totally...