31/8/2009 4.42pm
昨天去机场送走了美君。出乎意料的，我们包括他自己都没哭。也许是他父母也跟着他去的关系吧！突然想起两年前在丽芳出国的那一刻，当时才从form5出来的我们，没见过这种场面，说真的，他胆子也蛮大的。当时，进了关卡，他自己一个人，拖着一大箱的行李，拭着眼泪，捂着鼻子，低着头的走向前。我们和他的家人，就这样一直在上一层跟着他，直到看不到他为止。她那时的背影，对我来说印象还很深刻。当时我们就这样跑呀跑得跟着他。。。是的，她真的很勇敢。哈，团长就是团长，什么事都是他带头领先的。。。
晚上九点她男朋友才来在我们去机场。在下午五点多，就接到嘉裕的电话，除了说我没告诉她我一直喜欢着一个人外，大部分都说关于等下美君送机的事情。甚至在晚上美君要进关卡前，他也她来了第二通。。。其实换作是我是美君，我会很感动的。他，是八啦，在还没盖我电话之前还说‘等我和家希回来逼供你就知道’才肯挂断。可是无可否认，他，在3+3里面真的是单当之无愧的satelite，没有他，我们之间好像不会互相联络的。。。哈哈。。。在从机场回家的路上，由头到尾我们都在说马来西亚的坏话，突然在沙巴的陈嘉裕小姐就send了一封‘happy merdeka!one malaysia i love malaysia!' 的sms...有点swt...的感觉。。。
今天我全家人去了马六甲，我就因为晚上还要教补习，没去了。好遗憾。。。现在真的很像homealone，自己一个人在家，不知道做什么，就只好上网，以上就上到下午了。好无聊。。。今天做完家务了，跟淑芳聊了近四十分钟的电话，就开始无所事事。淑芳平时不多话，可是每次一说到他的大学，他就不停的投诉，变到比我还要多话了。哈哈哈！不过他的宿舍也好像又过分多的活动了。。。还没吃东西，它给了几个还在KL的朋友，哎哟，国庆日他家好像也跑去庆祝了，早知道我方那补习中心的飞机（其实是请假啦！）
今天早上六点随着家人起床了一下，要再入睡真的有点难。不知道为什么，突然又想起他。。。好想每晚睡在身旁的是他，每天早上起床第一个看到的也是他。我有逼自己不要像他了，想了很多很多个人来代替他，好像还是徒劳无功，起不了大的作用。。。
昨晚看见他在网上，可是由于要准备去机场和怕佩雯来到我家没人开门，就去厕所’速战速决‘。强迫自己不要想他，原以为从良速度快是为了要开门给佩雯，可是还是欺骗不了自己，其实是想在他还没下网之前赶快冲好，好来可以说几句话。。。终于想好了话题，冲了出来他还没下网，心情紧张的msn了他。。。。可惜，没有回应。。一直希望美君男朋友迟点到，可是等了好久，美君男友是还没到，可是他却下网了。。。一直告诉自己也许那是他哥哥或家人用她的户口上网，提起勇气sms了他。。。意料之内，从刚开始到机场直到从机场回到家，我还是等不到他的回应。。。
今天，我又打给他了。做完家务就迫不及待的打电话给他叫他出来一起吃东西。他弟弟告诉我，他出去了。。。又出去了。。。跟朋友吧。。。。不知道。。我又失望一次心又在痛一次。。。
还在网上。。。好无聊。。脑里想到的就只是他。。。。真的好烦。。。。
看到msn一个朋友的personalmessage写了：y this world has love?y love so hurt?等等等的。。。哈哈，刚巧我脑里也是不断在问这个问题。。。真的很赞同他。。。^^
又不由自主地开了那部德国戏，我知道我上网是为了转移我对他的视线，也明明知道这样我会更想那主角，和更加想他。。。可是还是在看了15malaysia过后看了。。。
好了，看完后，希望做些事情。。。忘记他。。。也许只是暂时的忘记，可是至少我可以有暂时一点点的快乐。。。。因为想他，好痛苦。。。
目前要做的，是要永远忘记他，就算这需要很长很长的时间。。。
就努力尝试不看德国戏开始吧!忘记主角忘记他！加油！希望等下补习学生能给我点欢笑^^
Monday, August 31, 2009
Sunday, August 30, 2009
哦？
30/8/2009 8.12pm
刚刚在facebook看见有人post了这句话：“ 好朋友是什么？好朋友是在你逛街的时候会注意到你的钱包已经很破破烂烂了然后会偷偷买一个钱包给你暂时用着先的人。”
是吗？一定要这样才算是好朋友吗？好朋友有一个衡量标准的吗？还是纯属个人意见？没什么。。。只是想拿这个话题来讨论。。最近看见许多形形色色的好朋友定义，有点觉得他们好像把朋友关系看得太重了，不是会让那段感情有压力吗？纯属个人意见。。。。
*今天这部落格被发现了，真的佩服他们的神通广大，还是别写太多秘密为上策。。。呵呵呵
刚刚在facebook看见有人post了这句话：“ 好朋友是什么？好朋友是在你逛街的时候会注意到你的钱包已经很破破烂烂了然后会偷偷买一个钱包给你暂时用着先的人。”
是吗？一定要这样才算是好朋友吗？好朋友有一个衡量标准的吗？还是纯属个人意见？没什么。。。只是想拿这个话题来讨论。。最近看见许多形形色色的好朋友定义，有点觉得他们好像把朋友关系看得太重了，不是会让那段感情有压力吗？纯属个人意见。。。。
*今天这部落格被发现了，真的佩服他们的神通广大，还是别写太多秘密为上策。。。呵呵呵
想他
30/8/09 7.22pm
今天又想他了。。。尤其是听到那美国歌手组合的歌。。。
自从他介绍我听那首歌后，就开始注意那组合，每听到他们的歌，就会想起他。。。所以有时宁可不去听他们的歌，可是还是会不由自主地去按了'PLAY'...
今天终于打给他，他出去了，该是和朋友吧。。。我告诉自己不要妒忌不要伤心。可是自己还是失落了。。。
我，占有欲蛮强的。。。
好了，不知要如何形容现在的心情。。。不知如何用字眼来形容这种思念。。。
因为除了想他，还是想他。。。
除了今天，还有很多很多的明天。。。
讨厌这感觉！！！
今天又想他了。。。尤其是听到那美国歌手组合的歌。。。
自从他介绍我听那首歌后，就开始注意那组合，每听到他们的歌，就会想起他。。。所以有时宁可不去听他们的歌，可是还是会不由自主地去按了'PLAY'...
今天终于打给他，他出去了，该是和朋友吧。。。我告诉自己不要妒忌不要伤心。可是自己还是失落了。。。
我，占有欲蛮强的。。。
好了，不知要如何形容现在的心情。。。不知如何用字眼来形容这种思念。。。
因为除了想他，还是想他。。。
除了今天，还有很多很多的明天。。。
讨厌这感觉！！！
SWT!!!
30/8/09 6.52pm
Oh Man!!!it's so so crazy n radiculous...
My existance of the blog had been discovered!!! Ya,it suppose to be a super normal thing to all and although it is just revealled among my close friends, but it really just sounds so crazy to me!!!
I never been thought of telling anybody that about this blog. It is created only for me to note down something...something like my journal la...
But swt!
yesterday somebody that got nothing to do at all with kelab pencegahan jenayah asked me about the successor...i was wondering.but anywhere,i din take it really seriously.
today, anther person asked me the same thing again!but funny, after asking it just leading the whole situation to somewhere so hillarious Man after i finally found out!!!hahaha,i so smart..luckily i knew wat there are talking about...i din confess anything...hohoho..i m so smart man....
I found out something really funny...those who really create a blog n meant to b read by people, always heard them asking everybody"read my blog, read my blog, go n read my blog..." as if like nobody reading their blog.but me,create a blog for my bery own journalling purpose, jz got somebody had to the to found out my blog.from a first friend that keep on asking me to gv him my blog till now it is revealled among my closet friends.it is just really departing from my original intention to create this blog at the first place...
all the time i really just thought one person except me is reading the blog..but now..man!the one that now in sabah oso kno about it. i totally got no idea how they can get to kno this. mayb yesterday maychin n pooimun in their meet up really that wu liao till go n Google search my name n get this..just so SWT!!!something u din wan them to happen, it will just come true. something u really wish it happen so badly, it will not comes as u wish afterall.
but one thing that i feel fortunate(not lucky, its fortunate!!!) that i din write something that is really big secret to me.hohoho.now it seems i have to stop writing something top secret liao...or learn from ng joe e,set a password for blog!!!hohoho.but wont so jin gak like her..haha
lai pooi mun, tee may chin n even tan jiayu from sabah.i really salute u all.i dun even think of that u all can be such 神通广大。。。n i m sure ths will spread to jennyu jiaxi n lifang n even out of 3+3 in one days time....hahaha..tabit hormat!!!
Oh Man!!!it's so so crazy n radiculous...
My existance of the blog had been discovered!!! Ya,it suppose to be a super normal thing to all and although it is just revealled among my close friends, but it really just sounds so crazy to me!!!
I never been thought of telling anybody that about this blog. It is created only for me to note down something...something like my journal la...
But swt!
yesterday somebody that got nothing to do at all with kelab pencegahan jenayah asked me about the successor...i was wondering.but anywhere,i din take it really seriously.
today, anther person asked me the same thing again!but funny, after asking it just leading the whole situation to somewhere so hillarious Man after i finally found out!!!hahaha,i so smart..luckily i knew wat there are talking about...i din confess anything...hohoho..i m so smart man....
I found out something really funny...those who really create a blog n meant to b read by people, always heard them asking everybody"read my blog, read my blog, go n read my blog..." as if like nobody reading their blog.but me,create a blog for my bery own journalling purpose, jz got somebody had to the to found out my blog.from a first friend that keep on asking me to gv him my blog till now it is revealled among my closet friends.it is just really departing from my original intention to create this blog at the first place...
all the time i really just thought one person except me is reading the blog..but now..man!the one that now in sabah oso kno about it. i totally got no idea how they can get to kno this. mayb yesterday maychin n pooimun in their meet up really that wu liao till go n Google search my name n get this..just so SWT!!!something u din wan them to happen, it will just come true. something u really wish it happen so badly, it will not comes as u wish afterall.
but one thing that i feel fortunate(not lucky, its fortunate!!!) that i din write something that is really big secret to me.hohoho.now it seems i have to stop writing something top secret liao...or learn from ng joe e,set a password for blog!!!hohoho.but wont so jin gak like her..haha
lai pooi mun, tee may chin n even tan jiayu from sabah.i really salute u all.i dun even think of that u all can be such 神通广大。。。n i m sure ths will spread to jennyu jiaxi n lifang n even out of 3+3 in one days time....hahaha..tabit hormat!!!
Thursday, August 27, 2009
深夜
2009年8月27日 凌晨两点零六分
深夜。。。
今天，好想他哦。。。
其实很讨厌深夜的，每次自己一个人坐在电脑前，思绪就任由去放肆的时候，回想起很多很多个他，同一个他。。。
其实我真的很喜欢很喜欢你的，好想告诉你，真的。。。。
深夜。。。
又上了去facebook，是呀，我现在才发现，你和我并不是那网站上的朋友也，去search那里输入了你的名一下，我知道我看到你后我会更想你的，我真的有尝试叫自己不要去按你的名字的，可是我也不知道为什么，我还是按了。。。
看了你的display picture，你还是一样，放了你最爱的玩具当展示图，可是我隐约看到那玩具身后，有着第二个人的影子，那是你的他吗？不是，我知道那只是你的朋友，也许是之前听你说过的那些志同道合的朋友，可是不知道为什么，心里好像被刺了一下，好痛。。。我怎么好象开始嫉妒了。。。
突然间，好想念以前不时就到你家的日子。。。曾自何时，我们好像失去联络很久了。。。
深夜。。。
特别想你。。。真的。。。想念以前我们每逢拜二拜五就相约去pasar malam，想念以前我睡到日照三竿肚子饿就打电话给一样也刚刚才睡醒的你一起去吃东西，想念以前时常把你带到我家跟我妈谈天跟我玩，想念以前有空就打电话叫你一起出去，甚至我去找我在工作的妹妹你也陪我去还没为什么地等了我整大半天，想念以前我们有事没事也出去遛了一整天，想念以前我一个一个的带你去认识我的朋友甚至还有一次和除了我好友之外的你一起捞生，想念以前你会不时打电话叫我出去，想念你以前没车回就打电话给我最后我把你再到我家一起搓汤圆，想念你那晚没得上网就嚷着要到我家过夜来上网，第二天甚至让你看见我和我妈吵架，我还哭得很厉害，这是连我最好的朋友也没见过的一面。。。还有很多很多。。。就算有时像我妈说的你只是利用我，可是，我还是会很心甘情愿地让你利用的。。。
深夜。。。
突然想起我们有多久没联络了。。。自从那天我跟你说了‘分手’，每次我打电话约你你都说不想出去。那次我回学校，我特地不要通知你，因为我知道是时候忘记你了，可是却让你遇见我，你还主动叫了我，跟我说你得学会赚很多钱，那时的我，虽然可恨地还坚持了那‘我们已分手’几个字，可是我还是忍不住跟你说了几句话。你说你最近要考试了，不要出去，就好象去年我考试我也不叫你出去一样。。。在学校遇见你的那一刻，突然间又好想你了，虽然只跟你说几句话，可是你又知不知道我想跟你说的，不止哪几句话。。。。
以前，没想过会认识你，印象之中只知道你好象是个很自以为了不起的一个普通巡查员，所以那时你说你被人威胁被人打时，我也爱理不理，你也直到现在还把这件事挂在口中，埋怨身为团长的我不帮你。。。后来，不知为何，冥冥中的安排，我们开始熟络，虽然我从没想过会这样，从我不把任何学长团的执委棒子交给你，到我把我学会的主席位子传给你，和你是不是都打电话给我叫我带你出去，我慢慢开始一天一天在想你了。。。
还记得，有一次去餐厅，你把吃剩的一大半碗稀饭给我，说吃不下了，为了不浪费食物，我把它给吃完，那时我还不停的埋怨我吃了你得口水，好恶心。。。现在，看来要有这机会，都不知道可以不可以了。。。
深夜。。。
我真的好想你，尤其是深夜。最近爱上一部剧的主角，让我好想好想去德国。每次想到他们，都好空虚，但每次想到他们，我也都会不由自主地去想你，那空虚就慢慢消失了。也许潜意识告诉我说，剧，是精神上的寄托，人物的幻想而已;而你，是我一生可以让我填满着寄托的真实人物。。。
好想你。。。。好爱好爱你。。。我好喜欢你。。。。
你知不知道我想对你说这几句话很久了。。。。
你知不知道，现在每次我都有冲动打电话给你，可是我怕你会再一次的说你不想出去。。。
你又知不知道，每次见到你，我的心都跳得好快，连和你msn都会；我懂很老土，可是这又是那么真实的感觉，只有你才给得到。。。
你知不知道，我每次看到你和别人有暧昧的照片，我的心都好痛，即使我知道，我又不是你的谁。。。 没资格去妒忌，去心痛。。。
你知不知道，以前每次说要和你出去，我都会有莫名的开心，每次和你在一起，都有想紧紧抱着你的感觉。。。
你知不知道，我想你想得快疯了。。。
我恨我自己，不敢告诉你我又多想你。。。
我恨我自己，明明很伤心却又故作坚强。。。
我恨我自己，明明很爱你还鼓励你去跟别人谈恋爱。。。
深夜。。。
我不停的在想你。。。
现在看回以上的文字，原来我对你有那么多美好的回忆。。。
最近很久没看你上网了，听说你就要考试，很想打电话跟你说，加把劲念书。
别问我为什么，因为我爱你，不然，我也不知道为什么。。。
如果我提起勇气打电话给你，不要告诉我你很忙不想出去，好吗？
如果你觉得我烦，别骂我好吗？
因为我只是想知道，现在的你最近。。。还好吗。。。？
深夜。。。
今天，好想他哦。。。
其实很讨厌深夜的，每次自己一个人坐在电脑前，思绪就任由去放肆的时候，回想起很多很多个他，同一个他。。。
其实我真的很喜欢很喜欢你的，好想告诉你，真的。。。。
深夜。。。
又上了去facebook，是呀，我现在才发现，你和我并不是那网站上的朋友也，去search那里输入了你的名一下，我知道我看到你后我会更想你的，我真的有尝试叫自己不要去按你的名字的，可是我也不知道为什么，我还是按了。。。
看了你的display picture，你还是一样，放了你最爱的玩具当展示图，可是我隐约看到那玩具身后，有着第二个人的影子，那是你的他吗？不是，我知道那只是你的朋友，也许是之前听你说过的那些志同道合的朋友，可是不知道为什么，心里好像被刺了一下，好痛。。。我怎么好象开始嫉妒了。。。
突然间，好想念以前不时就到你家的日子。。。曾自何时，我们好像失去联络很久了。。。
深夜。。。
特别想你。。。真的。。。想念以前我们每逢拜二拜五就相约去pasar malam，想念以前我睡到日照三竿肚子饿就打电话给一样也刚刚才睡醒的你一起去吃东西，想念以前时常把你带到我家跟我妈谈天跟我玩，想念以前有空就打电话叫你一起出去，甚至我去找我在工作的妹妹你也陪我去还没为什么地等了我整大半天，想念以前我们有事没事也出去遛了一整天，想念以前我一个一个的带你去认识我的朋友甚至还有一次和除了我好友之外的你一起捞生，想念以前你会不时打电话叫我出去，想念你以前没车回就打电话给我最后我把你再到我家一起搓汤圆，想念你那晚没得上网就嚷着要到我家过夜来上网，第二天甚至让你看见我和我妈吵架，我还哭得很厉害，这是连我最好的朋友也没见过的一面。。。还有很多很多。。。就算有时像我妈说的你只是利用我，可是，我还是会很心甘情愿地让你利用的。。。
深夜。。。
突然想起我们有多久没联络了。。。自从那天我跟你说了‘分手’，每次我打电话约你你都说不想出去。那次我回学校，我特地不要通知你，因为我知道是时候忘记你了，可是却让你遇见我，你还主动叫了我，跟我说你得学会赚很多钱，那时的我，虽然可恨地还坚持了那‘我们已分手’几个字，可是我还是忍不住跟你说了几句话。你说你最近要考试了，不要出去，就好象去年我考试我也不叫你出去一样。。。在学校遇见你的那一刻，突然间又好想你了，虽然只跟你说几句话，可是你又知不知道我想跟你说的，不止哪几句话。。。。
以前，没想过会认识你，印象之中只知道你好象是个很自以为了不起的一个普通巡查员，所以那时你说你被人威胁被人打时，我也爱理不理，你也直到现在还把这件事挂在口中，埋怨身为团长的我不帮你。。。后来，不知为何，冥冥中的安排，我们开始熟络，虽然我从没想过会这样，从我不把任何学长团的执委棒子交给你，到我把我学会的主席位子传给你，和你是不是都打电话给我叫我带你出去，我慢慢开始一天一天在想你了。。。
还记得，有一次去餐厅，你把吃剩的一大半碗稀饭给我，说吃不下了，为了不浪费食物，我把它给吃完，那时我还不停的埋怨我吃了你得口水，好恶心。。。现在，看来要有这机会，都不知道可以不可以了。。。
深夜。。。
我真的好想你，尤其是深夜。最近爱上一部剧的主角，让我好想好想去德国。每次想到他们，都好空虚，但每次想到他们，我也都会不由自主地去想你，那空虚就慢慢消失了。也许潜意识告诉我说，剧，是精神上的寄托，人物的幻想而已;而你，是我一生可以让我填满着寄托的真实人物。。。
好想你。。。。好爱好爱你。。。我好喜欢你。。。。
你知不知道我想对你说这几句话很久了。。。。
你知不知道，现在每次我都有冲动打电话给你，可是我怕你会再一次的说你不想出去。。。
你又知不知道，每次见到你，我的心都跳得好快，连和你msn都会；我懂很老土，可是这又是那么真实的感觉，只有你才给得到。。。
你知不知道，我每次看到你和别人有暧昧的照片，我的心都好痛，即使我知道，我又不是你的谁。。。 没资格去妒忌，去心痛。。。
你知不知道，以前每次说要和你出去，我都会有莫名的开心，每次和你在一起，都有想紧紧抱着你的感觉。。。
你知不知道，我想你想得快疯了。。。
我恨我自己，不敢告诉你我又多想你。。。
我恨我自己，明明很伤心却又故作坚强。。。
我恨我自己，明明很爱你还鼓励你去跟别人谈恋爱。。。
深夜。。。
我不停的在想你。。。
现在看回以上的文字，原来我对你有那么多美好的回忆。。。
最近很久没看你上网了，听说你就要考试，很想打电话跟你说，加把劲念书。
别问我为什么，因为我爱你，不然，我也不知道为什么。。。
如果我提起勇气打电话给你，不要告诉我你很忙不想出去，好吗？
如果你觉得我烦，别骂我好吗？
因为我只是想知道，现在的你最近。。。还好吗。。。？
Sunday, August 23, 2009
journal
23/8/09 6:13pm
this is the first post i posted in the evening i think..haha
20/8/2009
thursday.went to have dinner with jennyu's parents..juz me, jiayu n jiaxi n his family...ya,maychin n lifang din go...erm..rained..v jz chat..chat many things...haha..chat about our current life, skol life n even future life..ya..dunno wat will happen in few years time...jennyu's mum said v gather again in the same place after 5 years later n c what r v doing then..haha..ya..really interesting...after that, v continue chatting in jiaxi's house..hahatill 12am i think...really miss old skol time that v all 6 can gether together chit chat n study together in one of our's hse..
21/8/2009
friday.went to sheauyeong house to have dinner..haha..at first thaught juz them n 3+3..mana tahu tat day is jiasen's birthday too...so i bought a cake n jz celebrate wif him there..but something unexpected is, (cz jiaxi jz inform jiasen tat there is a gathering n ask him inform others,at first no one expect sheng eu qing yao them coming...),so ,v suddenly appear so many..really unexpected..n i kno sheauyeong like gotta handle the situation, that's her hse afterall n she cant let them sit there n dun talk to them rite, although she's not close wif them...n, lifang, jiayu n maychin came late...thaught maychin will b early,cz she likes to emphasize on punctuality.but dunno y,all of them came late..watever...then jiasen ask:"chokang, where's ur 3+3?"hey man, should u hv to ask like that?it sounds like teasing to me...but anywhere, juz a small thing, i wont take it seriuosly.ok,when jiasen said wana go,sheauyeong slipped of the tounge told him tat v hv a cake..haha,me n jiaxi was like'oh'..anyway,nothing serious, jz bring out the cake, cz i din tell sheauyeong abt the 'suprise' afterall oso..haha..something funny, when they wana keep the food, they ask me if maychin wana eat(lifang called n tell us she not going to eat),n i said, nvm la, she (maychin)dunwan de la..i bet, if she want, then i go n buy her food..mana tahu after she reach, she said she wana eat, vry hungry..swt..(but she din take much oso wat..haha)ya,i was told that sy n haoyang was splited up on the day morning tat v went back to DTSD.then friday was the first day i meet wif her after she ended the relationship.after v eat the cake, everyone there chat wif yihyung(webcam)..haha..yihyung is the type of person that 'opened', she can play wif many guys..then she like 'telling jiasen that she liked him so much during secondary skol time'..i think v kno she's jz kidding(she said the same thing to me after a while wat), but jiasen like take it seriously n keep thinking about it..haha..cute..anyway, after all those 'unexpected guys' leave...really left sy's gang n 3+3(except jiaxi,he went to karaoke wif them),then v clean up n chit chat..v leave at 1am n those girls went back to take the clothes n overnite at sy's hse.the next day i was told they webcam wif yy till 4am here(and 6am in Australia)...n sleep till 1pm,wont wake up if i din call them..haha
(many small parts of things tat i din write here..hard to write but they're meaningful to me though small^^)
22/8/09
saturday.i woke up at 8.30am.super tired.but hv to send my aunt to airport at 9am.man, when i m driving back,,it's super sleepy..dunno y..n the road is so straight n i m driving alone, i almost fall asleep man..after reach home at about 110.45am, i jz hv a long nap till 12.45am then went to hv lunch wif them.originally thaught there are 3+3 plus justin n sheauyeong,mana tahu on tat day suddeenly sy woke up late n justin not free..then really 5 of us having lunch there..originally those lunch v had is for 'farewell-ing' maychin before jiayu n jiaxi went back to sabah n sarawak.then so really 5 of us only without any bf gf there..wow,really destined that's 3+3's lunch..haha..originally v chose a place without a plug n i din charge my labtop.when v about to go home,the only place that wif plug was empty,then i jz switch on my pc to transfer photo n online.coinsidencely, v saw jennyu online.then v webcam wif him n v atke a picture..it's really hard for 6 of us now to take a picture together since v forgot take it this year n cant hv a complete 6 of us together since last year(lifang went to UK)..n now,everyone hv our own life.jiayu-sabah,jiaxi-sarawak,maychin-china,lifang-UK,jennyu-australia n me-KL..our birthday will celebrated by our own next year since 6 of us r totally separated..haha..so,the picture v took, v really will treasure it so much..v dont kno when v can take 6 ppl's photo together again..n so 'ngam' v will meet jennyu online..really 3+3's day today!!!haha
*those pictures was 'print screen' picture..still havnt fix its size.now now its pretty blur..
this is the first post i posted in the evening i think..haha
20/8/2009
thursday.went to have dinner with jennyu's parents..juz me, jiayu n jiaxi n his family...ya,maychin n lifang din go...erm..rained..v jz chat..chat many things...haha..chat about our current life, skol life n even future life..ya..dunno wat will happen in few years time...jennyu's mum said v gather again in the same place after 5 years later n c what r v doing then..haha..ya..really interesting...after that, v continue chatting in jiaxi's house..hahatill 12am i think...really miss old skol time that v all 6 can gether together chit chat n study together in one of our's hse..
21/8/2009
friday.went to sheauyeong house to have dinner..haha..at first thaught juz them n 3+3..mana tahu tat day is jiasen's birthday too...so i bought a cake n jz celebrate wif him there..but something unexpected is, (cz jiaxi jz inform jiasen tat there is a gathering n ask him inform others,at first no one expect sheng eu qing yao them coming...),so ,v suddenly appear so many..really unexpected..n i kno sheauyeong like gotta handle the situation, that's her hse afterall n she cant let them sit there n dun talk to them rite, although she's not close wif them...n, lifang, jiayu n maychin came late...thaught maychin will b early,cz she likes to emphasize on punctuality.but dunno y,all of them came late..watever...then jiasen ask:"chokang, where's ur 3+3?"hey man, should u hv to ask like that?it sounds like teasing to me...but anywhere, juz a small thing, i wont take it seriuosly.ok,when jiasen said wana go,sheauyeong slipped of the tounge told him tat v hv a cake..haha,me n jiaxi was like'oh'..anyway,nothing serious, jz bring out the cake, cz i din tell sheauyeong abt the 'suprise' afterall oso..haha..something funny, when they wana keep the food, they ask me if maychin wana eat(lifang called n tell us she not going to eat),n i said, nvm la, she (maychin)dunwan de la..i bet, if she want, then i go n buy her food..mana tahu after she reach, she said she wana eat, vry hungry..swt..(but she din take much oso wat..haha)ya,i was told that sy n haoyang was splited up on the day morning tat v went back to DTSD.then friday was the first day i meet wif her after she ended the relationship.after v eat the cake, everyone there chat wif yihyung(webcam)..haha..yihyung is the type of person that 'opened', she can play wif many guys..then she like 'telling jiasen that she liked him so much during secondary skol time'..i think v kno she's jz kidding(she said the same thing to me after a while wat), but jiasen like take it seriously n keep thinking about it..haha..cute..anyway, after all those 'unexpected guys' leave...really left sy's gang n 3+3(except jiaxi,he went to karaoke wif them),then v clean up n chit chat..v leave at 1am n those girls went back to take the clothes n overnite at sy's hse.the next day i was told they webcam wif yy till 4am here(and 6am in Australia)...n sleep till 1pm,wont wake up if i din call them..haha
(many small parts of things tat i din write here..hard to write but they're meaningful to me though small^^)
22/8/09
saturday.i woke up at 8.30am.super tired.but hv to send my aunt to airport at 9am.man, when i m driving back,,it's super sleepy..dunno y..n the road is so straight n i m driving alone, i almost fall asleep man..after reach home at about 110.45am, i jz hv a long nap till 12.45am then went to hv lunch wif them.originally thaught there are 3+3 plus justin n sheauyeong,mana tahu on tat day suddeenly sy woke up late n justin not free..then really 5 of us having lunch there..originally those lunch v had is for 'farewell-ing' maychin before jiayu n jiaxi went back to sabah n sarawak.then so really 5 of us only without any bf gf there..wow,really destined that's 3+3's lunch..haha..originally v chose a place without a plug n i din charge my labtop.when v about to go home,the only place that wif plug was empty,then i jz switch on my pc to transfer photo n online.coinsidencely, v saw jennyu online.then v webcam wif him n v atke a picture..it's really hard for 6 of us now to take a picture together since v forgot take it this year n cant hv a complete 6 of us together since last year(lifang went to UK)..n now,everyone hv our own life.jiayu-sabah,jiaxi-sarawak,maychin-china,lifang-UK,jennyu-australia n me-KL..our birthday will celebrated by our own next year since 6 of us r totally separated..haha..so,the picture v took, v really will treasure it so much..v dont kno when v can take 6 ppl's photo together again..n so 'ngam' v will meet jennyu online..really 3+3's day today!!!haha
*those pictures was 'print screen' picture..still havnt fix its size.now now its pretty blur..
Thursday, August 20, 2009
story for a few day before..
20/8 2:37am
17/8/2009
i went to karaoke with college fren..anyway,this is not the main story..stupid.i had an accident on tat nite.after giving tuition, i chat with my boss and wana to go to jennyu9went to Australia) house originally.i leave the tuition center a little bit late compared to usual. just at the moment i wana cross a junction, Shit!i crash with a myvi!!!!i dunno y i din c the car and din stop fully at the junction.usually i drove n play HP..but this no!i din do anything..i was thinking something tat time but i cant recall wat i was thinking..it juz' Bang, i really din c the car n din mean to cross the junction absurdly!according to the girl(driver of the myvi) i drove vry fast,n my family said that too according to the condition of my car after accident.luckily the family of the girl was kind, n i called to my house, no one pick up although thousand times i called.then i called jiayu informing that i m not going jennyu house ady.finally i called my aunt.ya,it got settle.v both agree to make a report,cz hv to claim insurance,its too expensive to use the own money to fix the car due to the teruk condition.k,done.but really,i dunno y i will kena.n weird, i din get shocked or frighten after i crash.just a little rude word,then i start calling.y can i b so calm ah?
ya,wat i overwhelmed with is, after i drove my car back to my house,jiayu called n she ask where m i.i told her i m already at home.then she said'ok,nothing.' wat unexpected is, i saw a black myvi drive in front of my house and it is so familiar!there is jiaxi and jiayu!!!wow,i m so overwhemled.they came here after jennyu house just to check me up although its late nite..around 11.40pm i think.then v just chat n chat n chat till almost 2 am...(jiayu said 3 of us that in KL,so weird.after he n jiaxi two satelite went to U,we din even contact each other till now esp lifang..haha,ya,weird..)haha..really unexpected..i dunno wat to say..just thanks them,though they think tats nothing..haha.they kno me so well too,first question they ask after they check out that there's no injuries is,did i play with my HP while driving..haha.even maychin was told today,she asked the same question as well..swt,i kno its not a gud thing to proud of.anyhow,at least i kno i hv such a group of fren.really appreciate them so much.dunno wat to say..so touched..
3+3 forever!
3+3 forever!my car's condition.can imagine how teruk is my wallet to pay for the charges for all those repair n spare parts..
18/9/2008
supposingly i hv to go IOI rebox to sing k again with those who just camr back for holiday from local U.tat day morning around 10.20am v go to d police station at KL.stupid,after make a report,suppose to meet a sarjan.they told me go back on thursday the sarjan ady went home.but before i wana go home,the sarjan called me n say he is there n can meet him.he said now he's OT..oh..ok.this sarjan was kind,but wat interesting is,after i admit thats my fault,i suppose to kena saman RM300.then my mum ask whether can reduce the amount a not.after he mentioned few times about the saman n telling me i kena tolak 8 out of 15 marks till same time next year, he said (start hinting),if v want, v can pay RM200 so tat he can 'belanja his boss' minum to close case,then i will not kena saman n tolak markah.he said' saya tak mau paksa u lah,u mau macam mana u cakap,i cuba tolong.'then he start hinting.my mum mentioned too, now MACC is so 'hot' now,maybe after kena something how?he said nothing wan wo..my mum almost agree.finally i ask my mum dun.first,i hate that all those stupid malaysia police do all this corruption. second,man!if like tat ma corruption?crime wo!if i kena,then i become criminal n i cant become lawyer forever i think.so i told him frankly i worried about that. i rather kena saman n drive carefully till next year dis date.coz involve in road traffic offence n civil case wont affect me about the lawyer thing wan..i think..so i kena saman n tolak markah lo.but my mum said he's so kind.so belanja kopi RM5.he acted like nothing oso when my mum put the money on his desk.haiz..Malaysia Boleh!then went to take the photo for the car.Man!the stupid officer over there, he thaught he is ketua polis..so arragant.anyway,i m still a little citizen here,sabar..let him take photo n leave.just dun smile to him.coz hv to pay the saman n go here go there due to their syupid procedure.i cant go sing k liao.cz i done at 1pm n the k start at 1pm.no car to get there..haiz.Malaysia really boleh!gambateh malaysia!i will always support u....
19/8/09
went back to DTSD with jiayu.go n become a temporary actor..haha..after v had lunch with them.Ah Sim buying.haha..really miss the old time.but din got to meet up with Shawn.anyway,will get back to work september too.Ah sim said he is lookin forward for me to come back,no nid to wait till sept wo..haha..glad to hear tat.dunno serious a not.ha!at nite the tuition center students said they heard some weird sound.even the teacher heard it.students got so frighten cz a group of them heard it..haha..dunno wats tat,i think just they just frighten by themselves la.after i leave the center,my boss called me.she asked wat i heard?she got frighten after listen to the students.i said nola,i din hear anything,she said got the other teacher said i m d first one who runaway.Man!!!i even went to the toilet to ash my hand k?the teacher really,haiz...
then when to a cafe to yumcha with 3+3 lo.thaught kaipin going,he is leaving to Cardiff on sept lo..but at last,he din turn up cz lifang din ask him along wo..haha..v went to a new cafe nearby jiayu house.u kno wat, i realise the name is 'red island cafe'='hong dau'!!!dunno jz coinsidence or the drama from NTV7 got something to do with it.Man!the restaurant in the show really exist wan ah?haha..maychin leave earlier n v jz chat till late nite too.long time din chat like dis too since they went to U.n i din meet up with lifang too even both of us in KL.haha.took a photo juz now.prettyy nice de,but no jennyu inside.times now really cant take all 6 liao..haiz.wat a ..was told that ada dinner wif jennyu's family tml.ok...after lifang leave, i ,jiaxi n jiayu stood outside of our car to chat a whole,saw ppl start 'praying for the July wan.'at first i dunno,then jiayu told me thursday is July in lunar calendar liao.yer,jz now when i told them abt the tuition story,jiayu said she agak kno y but i ask her dun tell.stupid,she told me in the car at last.=.='''anyway,v not v r not suppose to talk abt this when v chatting outside the car after v saw the praying thing.ok.i think tats all.ya,i was told today morning by jiayu(she really geng,study in sabah but can kno the 3 8 news in KL a lot better than me),sheauyeong n haoyang break up liao.the reason is the girl said the boy contact her too much(once in a week, n the boy in australia)..weird la...mayb she has a vry high demand on his bf..dunno..watever..think tats all.wana sleep liao..bye bye..( i will rewrite about the post that i accidentally deletd in mandarin..soon...)
Monday, August 17, 2009
FUCK!!!!!!
FUCK!!!!!!
Stupid Fucking Bitch Blogger.com!!!!!
Sorry, i kno i m rude here..but i really cant endure it anymore!!!!Fuck!!!
i took one whole night to write a chinese post...juz at the moment i about to end it, i uploading the picture...i dunno somehow n somewhy, while i adding a few words, the stupid webpage pop up saying my picture is done with uploading...but NO ANY picture here and MY WHOLE POST IS GONE!!!!!!
i tried in dashboard,thaught it will save as draft...where is it??????NO ANYTHING!!!!!!
i m so fucking pissed off now!!!!why there is no Undo button here?i encounter the problem many times while i typing...just because few times it doesn't delete my whole post,now..................FUCK!!!
maybe it autosaved too fast..But..man...if u autosaved so fast, wat for u autosave it?autosave is for us to retrieve our lost post in case of mistakenly click a button or wrong typing till the original post gone.even if it is for preventing the whole post gone if electricity cut off suddenly, but it is really too fast!when there is a little change,it autosave as draft....WAT FOR???how can ppl retrieve it?
FUCK!!!!!!
Stupid Fucking Bitch Blogger.com!!!!!
Sorry, i kno i m rude here..but i really cant endure it anymore!!!!Fuck!!!
i took one whole night to write a chinese post...juz at the moment i about to end it, i uploading the picture...i dunno somehow n somewhy, while i adding a few words, the stupid webpage pop up saying my picture is done with uploading...but NO ANY picture here and MY WHOLE POST IS GONE!!!!!!
i tried in dashboard,thaught it will save as draft...where is it??????NO ANYTHING!!!!!!
i m so fucking pissed off now!!!!why there is no Undo button here?i encounter the problem many times while i typing...just because few times it doesn't delete my whole post,now..................FUCK!!!
maybe it autosaved too fast..But..man...if u autosaved so fast, wat for u autosave it?autosave is for us to retrieve our lost post in case of mistakenly click a button or wrong typing till the original post gone.even if it is for preventing the whole post gone if electricity cut off suddenly, but it is really too fast!when there is a little change,it autosave as draft....WAT FOR???how can ppl retrieve it?
FUCK!!!!!!
Saturday, August 15, 2009
无名
这部落格原本就应以华语为主，由于自己懒惰，所以都把它们写成英文了。。。
没什么，就制止太久没用中文了，现在考验考验自己仅剩的中文写作能力。。。哈
家希从沙捞越回来了，嘉裕也在明天大气八点班机回到这里。。。只是丽芳刚好就在今天，去了个三天两夜刁曼之旅。。。。振语还没回来。。。所以3+3还没能聚在一起，甚至今年的周年照，我们忘了拍下。。。
明天一早，约了他们吃早餐，很久没这样了，甚至美君也提议去看电影，这，简直是N年前我们一起做的事了，不知道有多久，我们真的没有好像还在中三中四是的小朋友般，一起约好去看电影。。。
也许，大家长大了，随着时间，一步一步地向自己的前途迈进，似乎好久好久，大家都忘了当初认识到成位好友时的那样能够天真活泼，无忧无虑。。。三年，甚至几乎四年后的今天，少了那份稚气；多了的，是现在对自己未来的憧憬。。。
一眼瞬间，这句话形容得很贴切，一转眼，大家真的好像成熟了。。。
想起之前的种种，为了小事而吵架，为了天真的梦想而执着，甚至可以为了一个不起眼的小动作笑得不停，今天，大家似乎真的忘了当初我们可以拥有的快乐。不过，也许，现在我们有的，是为了这些小动作而感动。
生活的枷锁，困得大家透不过气，也是有时，真的需要去松一口气。。。
生活的路，并不易走，路上的荆棘，时常把你割得满身是伤；梦想的路，甚至还很遥远。然而我们知道，在这坎坷的人生路上，堂自己回头看时，我们会发现，我们并不是孤单的。。。
Done.不知为何在这里语无伦次。不过总算写了这里第一篇中文文章。。。
(a passage that without resentence and rephrase.juz write down whatever i think, it is not an unsatisfactory passage for me.cz sleepy n tired...15/8/09,3am)
没什么，就制止太久没用中文了，现在考验考验自己仅剩的中文写作能力。。。哈
家希从沙捞越回来了，嘉裕也在明天大气八点班机回到这里。。。只是丽芳刚好就在今天，去了个三天两夜刁曼之旅。。。。振语还没回来。。。所以3+3还没能聚在一起，甚至今年的周年照，我们忘了拍下。。。
明天一早，约了他们吃早餐，很久没这样了，甚至美君也提议去看电影，这，简直是N年前我们一起做的事了，不知道有多久，我们真的没有好像还在中三中四是的小朋友般，一起约好去看电影。。。
也许，大家长大了，随着时间，一步一步地向自己的前途迈进，似乎好久好久，大家都忘了当初认识到成位好友时的那样能够天真活泼，无忧无虑。。。三年，甚至几乎四年后的今天，少了那份稚气；多了的，是现在对自己未来的憧憬。。。
一眼瞬间，这句话形容得很贴切，一转眼，大家真的好像成熟了。。。
想起之前的种种，为了小事而吵架，为了天真的梦想而执着，甚至可以为了一个不起眼的小动作笑得不停，今天，大家似乎真的忘了当初我们可以拥有的快乐。不过，也许，现在我们有的，是为了这些小动作而感动。
生活的枷锁，困得大家透不过气，也是有时，真的需要去松一口气。。。
生活的路，并不易走，路上的荆棘，时常把你割得满身是伤；梦想的路，甚至还很遥远。然而我们知道，在这坎坷的人生路上，堂自己回头看时，我们会发现，我们并不是孤单的。。。
Done.不知为何在这里语无伦次。不过总算写了这里第一篇中文文章。。。
(a passage that without resentence and rephrase.juz write down whatever i think, it is not an unsatisfactory passage for me.cz sleepy n tired...15/8/09,3am)
finally exam is over
15/8/09 2.21am
OMG!!!i wrongly clicked, so there is a few same title post without context..haha..too happy after exam..
today(yesterday) finally finished my first year exam...contract is the last paper...
well,tat day after public law, kelvin and bell told me that in order to get a pass, i have to get 50 after the exam marks had been converted to total 75%...and the mark for pass is 50%..gosh!!!it really difficult!tats mean i had to get 17 marks for each question just to pass. It's impossible. that's marks for first class student man!!!are u sure thats the way of calculate it..
today got to know from ms meera that only had to get each quastion 10 marks to pass...this at least give me a hope..hopefully she is right..and she said it's easy to pass(mayb juzst hard to get A)..haha..anyway,now everything is over...hopefully i can get at least pass
today contract is the only papaer that v really nid to fully analyse the question ourself..thus, it consume a lot of my times since the first offer and accepatance question is so confusing..last 3 papaer i got to write down what I memorise and in case if i really hv no time(which i always do), i can just rewrite the point as i cant think under such stress and rush time..but for today...i chose misrep to b my last question..i m really no time..gosh..luckily invigilator not as that strict, i still got to write some..
anyway, due to the timelimit, i hv to write the main point first and add some assition point in the 'extra' time..thus, whole essay actually mess up...n tofday only got to kno my assignment for contract got 16 marks...i knew ms meera pretty strict in marking..so wat can i do now is...hope every subject pass and enjoy the holiday before the result(even ms meera ask us to do so when talk to her today after exam)
haha..really, hope i can get to 2nd year smoothly...gambateh!!!
OMG!!!i wrongly clicked, so there is a few same title post without context..haha..too happy after exam..
today(yesterday) finally finished my first year exam...contract is the last paper...
well,tat day after public law, kelvin and bell told me that in order to get a pass, i have to get 50 after the exam marks had been converted to total 75%...and the mark for pass is 50%..gosh!!!it really difficult!tats mean i had to get 17 marks for each question just to pass. It's impossible. that's marks for first class student man!!!are u sure thats the way of calculate it..
today got to know from ms meera that only had to get each quastion 10 marks to pass...this at least give me a hope..hopefully she is right..and she said it's easy to pass(mayb juzst hard to get A)..haha..anyway,now everything is over...hopefully i can get at least pass
today contract is the only papaer that v really nid to fully analyse the question ourself..thus, it consume a lot of my times since the first offer and accepatance question is so confusing..last 3 papaer i got to write down what I memorise and in case if i really hv no time(which i always do), i can just rewrite the point as i cant think under such stress and rush time..but for today...i chose misrep to b my last question..i m really no time..gosh..luckily invigilator not as that strict, i still got to write some..
anyway, due to the timelimit, i hv to write the main point first and add some assition point in the 'extra' time..thus, whole essay actually mess up...n tofday only got to kno my assignment for contract got 16 marks...i knew ms meera pretty strict in marking..so wat can i do now is...hope every subject pass and enjoy the holiday before the result(even ms meera ask us to do so when talk to her today after exam)
haha..really, hope i can get to 2nd year smoothly...gambateh!!!
Saturday, August 8, 2009
another exam..
8/8/09 02:33am
wow..today i really online late.i onli got on the line around 1:20am. going to off soon anyway..sleepy...gotta appreciate the sleeping time during exam week..extra valuable..
today(yesterday) finished CLR exam..man!really worry now...even more worry than criminal paper...i really blank out when i received the paper..ya..i kno..i only started study the nite before the exam(precisely the 'morning', istarted around 12am++)..then unlike criminal,i din drink coffee, thus cant stand the sleepiness n sleep a while but din expect it will affect my study time. i cant concentrate while sleeping, awake, study, sleeping..
then i m vry sure today i got prepaed vry early like the criminal day..i go to the bus stop n wait for the bus n intend to study on the bus...but gosh!!!from 8.50am till 9.30am..not even one bus! no choice, gotta get back house n drive there..i reach skol at around 10.02am..luckily..but i cant really study then..cz hv to drive..jz got to study while waiting thr bus..but cant concentrate well too...
then with the half knowledge i have, i enter the room n sit for exam..man!!!really really worry now..ppl who leave earlier even had written more pages than me!my last question, same, no time, but worse, 1 and 1/2 pages only..about JAC..i tried to squeeze but really nothing come out...this is d topic i tried to memorize while driving..
well...now two paper is over..no matter how..gotta sit for the next public paper on tuesday...nothing much i demand for..juz PLEASE..let me pass then i will get satisfy enough..plz plz plz..
n hope, n gotta be determioned too..tml..gotta start study public too..dun wait until last minutes like two previous papers...
ok,lew cho kang..u mz pay some effort on it in order to pass..n hope...prayto God..really..let me pass all the paper..PLEASE...
(out of topic notes: man! i really got addicted to a German show..really..mayb one of the reason i cant get concentrate too..cz keep thinking about it...got crush on it..haha)
wow..today i really online late.i onli got on the line around 1:20am. going to off soon anyway..sleepy...gotta appreciate the sleeping time during exam week..extra valuable..
today(yesterday) finished CLR exam..man!really worry now...even more worry than criminal paper...i really blank out when i received the paper..ya..i kno..i only started study the nite before the exam(precisely the 'morning', istarted around 12am++)..then unlike criminal,i din drink coffee, thus cant stand the sleepiness n sleep a while but din expect it will affect my study time. i cant concentrate while sleeping, awake, study, sleeping..
then i m vry sure today i got prepaed vry early like the criminal day..i go to the bus stop n wait for the bus n intend to study on the bus...but gosh!!!from 8.50am till 9.30am..not even one bus! no choice, gotta get back house n drive there..i reach skol at around 10.02am..luckily..but i cant really study then..cz hv to drive..jz got to study while waiting thr bus..but cant concentrate well too...
then with the half knowledge i have, i enter the room n sit for exam..man!!!really really worry now..ppl who leave earlier even had written more pages than me!my last question, same, no time, but worse, 1 and 1/2 pages only..about JAC..i tried to squeeze but really nothing come out...this is d topic i tried to memorize while driving..
well...now two paper is over..no matter how..gotta sit for the next public paper on tuesday...nothing much i demand for..juz PLEASE..let me pass then i will get satisfy enough..plz plz plz..
n hope, n gotta be determioned too..tml..gotta start study public too..dun wait until last minutes like two previous papers...
ok,lew cho kang..u mz pay some effort on it in order to pass..n hope...prayto God..really..let me pass all the paper..PLEASE...
(out of topic notes: man! i really got addicted to a German show..really..mayb one of the reason i cant get concentrate too..cz keep thinking about it...got crush on it..haha)
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
exam..
5/8/09 12.54am
one paper just gone..criminal...feel like i did not do well...
yup..i din sleep for the whole nite the day before the exam just to study my criminal..
yup..i din study anything before this...gotta do it now...
thus,i drunk a cup of coffee to keep me awake..who knows,maybe due to the stress that i have to memorise all before 8am n get to skol plus the effect of caffein on me(i will feel nervous after taken caffein)...as a consequence,yup,i really not feel like sleeping for whole night..but in 4am++,probably think of that i can't finish memorise on time..then i start nertvous..in addition of the caffein effect,i am 'super nervous' then..can't really do,think, memorise anything..man..going to die..
din sleep for the whole nite, n still keep on memorising in the bus..i felt dizzy..when i got the paper on my table..Man.i m ltotally blank!!!!what am i suppose to do?shit..only thing,try to squeeze out watever left in my brain before everything gone..
i din got enough time to complete it..thus,unlike my classmates, they wrote around 24 pages but me only 15 pages( Q1 only 2 pages)...really scare that i can't get gud result, or more serious, can't pass...now just hope that..God bless me!!!!
my assignment din get really high point esp for criminal..really hopefully i can manage to at least pass this time..please...
this is the lesson for me, dun ever burn midnight oil..and this is my first law degree paper...i really din expect hv to memorise sooooo much..it's too mush...what i memorise for the first question already reach my limit of memory used when i m in Form 6(form 6 i tot super suffer cz hv to memorise a lot)..now i kno...situation now, course now..even worse..
man...hopefully can get thru it.. 3 more papers to go..gambateh!!!!
one paper just gone..criminal...feel like i did not do well...
yup..i din sleep for the whole nite the day before the exam just to study my criminal..
yup..i din study anything before this...gotta do it now...
thus,i drunk a cup of coffee to keep me awake..who knows,maybe due to the stress that i have to memorise all before 8am n get to skol plus the effect of caffein on me(i will feel nervous after taken caffein)...as a consequence,yup,i really not feel like sleeping for whole night..but in 4am++,probably think of that i can't finish memorise on time..then i start nertvous..in addition of the caffein effect,i am 'super nervous' then..can't really do,think, memorise anything..man..going to die..
din sleep for the whole nite, n still keep on memorising in the bus..i felt dizzy..when i got the paper on my table..Man.i m ltotally blank!!!!what am i suppose to do?shit..only thing,try to squeeze out watever left in my brain before everything gone..
i din got enough time to complete it..thus,unlike my classmates, they wrote around 24 pages but me only 15 pages( Q1 only 2 pages)...really scare that i can't get gud result, or more serious, can't pass...now just hope that..God bless me!!!!
my assignment din get really high point esp for criminal..really hopefully i can manage to at least pass this time..please...
this is the lesson for me, dun ever burn midnight oil..and this is my first law degree paper...i really din expect hv to memorise sooooo much..it's too mush...what i memorise for the first question already reach my limit of memory used when i m in Form 6(form 6 i tot super suffer cz hv to memorise a lot)..now i kno...situation now, course now..even worse..
man...hopefully can get thru it.. 3 more papers to go..gambateh!!!!
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