I'm just a boy

I'm just a boy.

A boy who is only dreaming of getting to the State and settle down there.

A boy who is still believing everything is possible as long as you keep believing.

A boy who is hoping he can living his own dream one day.

A boy who still dare to dream big even growing older and older.

Why are they seems so hard to me?

CliffsNotes version, a boy who only dream for one day he can earns a lots of money, provides a good life for his mom and his family, lives the country he always wanted to and works as a job he always dreaming for.

Is there too much to ask?

A lady's story

Could you ever imagine, a lady, who had his husband passed away after about 2 years they got married.

Could you ever imagine, the lady, who did not have herself remarried again, because she never thought of that is one of her choice.

Could you imagine, the lady, who has nothing left by her husband but two children which only 1 and 2 years old respectively and never even have the thought crossing her mind before to abandon them.

Could you imagine, the lady, who doesn't know how to drive but decide to become hawker, who apparently needs transport a lot, because it seems like nothing else she could do.

Could you imagine, the lady, she lives her life for nothing but just to raise her two children.

Could you imagine, the lady, her life is all about cooking for the whole big family including her siblings, looking after their children and sometimes picking up the slack besides working very hard to earn some money for her children.

Could you imagine, the lady, who has the education until standard 5, has now have to carry the burden to support her children's education and making sure they are well educated, no matter how.

Could you imagine, the lady, who only know how to speak chinese, some malay and nothing about english, have to make sure her children can have the same childhood as other children had, although that is mean sometimes they have to be brought to some english speaking environment she can't really communicate well.

Could you imagine, the lady, who doesn't know how to drive, just a lady, carried her about 6 years old sick son on her back for almost 3km from shops to home.

Could you imagine, the lady, managed to support her son to overseas by her own savings and earning.

Could you imagine, the lady, worked as so many jobs before even few jobs per day just to make sure her children can have a good lifestyle.

Could you imagine, the lady, who being a mum and supposed to only pamper, parents, teach and spoil her children as every mom gets to but she has to carries all the job as a father and mother now just to raise her children up, no matter what.

Could you imagine, the lady, who apparently knows how's embarrassment feels like but she can ignore it totally for her children.

Could you imagine, the lady, who should be one who only knows how to spend for the latest purse, has to now know how to fix the toilets, unclog the sinks and change the lamp.

Could you imagine, the lady, who ought to have a life like any other lady, make up, go out, have a family trip but what she got is just work harder and harder and never dare of dreaming those.

Could you imagine, the lady, who expect she can have a good life after married, who should only worries about how to cure the pimples on her face, what to wear today, what brand of purse is up to trend today but what she get to worries is all about how to keep her bank account enough to sustain her and the children's life.

If one day the lady asked me: ' Will I embarrass my son by wearing this in that occasion? '

Me :' Why?'

The lady:' Because every other mom out there is so stunning, putting up make up, wearing ear rings and so on but I have only this ordinary look.'

Me: ' No! Whatever you wear, however you look like, he will be definitely proud of you. MOM.'

Exactly, the lady, the widow, the wonderful woman, is my MOM.

If you ever wondered if you did a good job all these while, no doubt, you did!

Maybe I don't know how it feels like to have dad, maybe I am not like other boys out there, have their father to teach, guide, accompany them in everything and how to be a man.

But thanks to dad, I get to know I have an amazing mom.

I know you always feel bad that we don't have a dad in our childhood, we don't have a 'protective' feeling that make us don't have to afraid when get bullied because our dad will take care for us.

I know you feel bad that we don't have a pretty mom to show off like many other children.

If you ever thought of that, no, you are totally wrong.

You are the PRETTIEST, no matter how many pimples on your face, how rough your hand became.

You are not an ordinary woman, I can be sure of that.

You did not embarrass us at all, I just want you to be proud of me one day, that you are having a son, a successful one.

I will try my best, no matter what I'm doing, I promise.

Happy CNY, mom!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tSdiNSS7UEY&feature=related

Inspiration of CNY

除了终于明白，孝顺，到底有多重要以外，我也突然被激发：

Besides having to know how important it is to be filial piety(Well, there is no direct translation of 孝顺 from Chinese to English, maybe we Chinese are much more emphasize on that moral value than any other races.) That's also what I got inspired.

美国是我的梦，大英帝国是我的家，大马是我的根，大陆，看来也与我无关了。

大自然定律，我们总要在家奋斗，回到根本，再去筑梦。

UK is my home now, Malaysia is my root, where I came from, USA is still my dream. The cosmic order,we have to live in our home today building our dream and of course, we will be going back to our root, one day for sure.

This is inspired by a true story:

A: Are you going back to your country for CNY?

B: Yes, one day for sure. This is my home now but that is my root. I will definitely be going back to my root one day...

Have a great CNY everyone!!!

Did I changed?

I wonder, all this while, all the act I have been doing, all the thing I have done, all the thought I have been holding...Did I changed?

Ever since I came to UK, I realize maybe something changed in me. I am not sure.

I discovered, proved, found out, seen something, that makes me somehow, realize something.

Just like I know there is nothing normal in the world.

Normal, is just the way the majority think they are, think they 'supposed' to be.

Acting different from majority, is that to be considered abnormal? Not only human, many other living and non living things.

The definition of 'normal' will changes, if perception of the world change.

After all, normal - just the most people way of thinking.

This a part of message that I chat with my friend, a very very close friend, or I should say siblings...

''er.actually all this while i know what i had been doing.
and maybe something deep inside, i never tell anyone thats why no one can really understand me, no one i can really talk about when come to some thing that affect me, bother me and distracting me a lot.
and some times i just wonder why i even deserve that.
it's not because i don't want to tell, just i don't know how to tell.
or maybe i am not the one who you think i am, analogical speaking.
maybe something you haven't learn about me?er, i am not sure.
but i know, everything i have done, i did it for a reason.
no worries, i am handling it and i had it under control. at least i hope i can.

well, somehow i think i am in deep shit of psychological problem also.lol''

The point is, I never say that to anyone before, neither family or closet friends. Maybe something that I was trying to hide inside for so long, this is one step that I am taking forward to. It took a lot of guts for me to do that.

So, did I changed? I don't know.

Or maybe, things just weren't the way they were.

Alternative

To me:

Life, isn't easy. (American way : ain't easy. lol)

Your life, especially.

Sometimes when you hope for that, it just doesn't really comes out that way.

But, what you have to do, or what you can do, is just try your best. Just because the life is hard, doesn't mean it won't go smooth one day.

Maybe you can't be the best, just try not to be the worst.

Rephrase, maybe you are not the best, but at least we you not the worst either.

Just try to be outstanding.

Maybe the world isn't fair. Or maybe you have no idea what you are going through.

Probably you think you don't deserve all that. But you don't have a choice.

Let's the life flow. Follow where it leads you to. Dream big.

If you wondering for what you are doing all these, then just think of for who you are doing this.

You have a HUGE family burden to carry, remember?

Life has got no time to rest and maybe you are not the best. But learning is the process, alternative is the way=)

人生

突然间这样突发奇想。

第一，从来就没有想过一个有‘如果’的人生会是怎样。

因为到现在如果你好相信人生有两次机会，（人生（还）有‘如果’的话，你不是天真，就是白痴。

第二，自私，本来就是一种本能。

第三，如果断了线的风筝能够失而复得的话，那么当时线，就不会断了。

因为，鬼佬说的，everything happens for a reason.

事出必有因。

这几句是鼓励激励还是负力，见仁见智。

A lame but true story

Once upon a time, human was awarded with supernatural power on the first day they are borne.

There were two brothers, one uses his power for good and the other uses it for evil.

One day, they walked on the street and they saw a chimpanzee.

Evil: Hey, what do you think if i make it our slave, to serve us, to please us, to flatter... (Smile and imagine) How good if there is someone to serve you coffee, message your body every time you want to, and, most importantly, 24/7 on call.

Good: Are you going out of your mind? No magic for personal gain, remember?

Evil: Okay, here it comes. Yuck, I hate that big-brother-nagging-style again. If you don't want to enjoy that luxury, piss off. I will, no matter what. Besides, how worst can it be when it is just a chimpanzee.

Good: No, you have to bear the personal gain consequences...(Evil started to sway his stick while chanting and mumbling with some spell, when he is about to point the chimpanzee with the stick, Good tries to stop him by waving of his hand. The power hit a cupid who is on duty and it so happened that the arrow hits the the evil. The evil passed out. The cupid blacked out. )

Good: Oh my god.

(Both of them awake)

Cupid: Hey, look what you've done! You are not suppose to be hit by my arrow. Human are forbidden to love!

Evil: What, if he did not stop me, (look at Good) this wouldn't have happened and I have already get want I want! Now thanks to him, I have the ability to love? Geez, how suck that is.

Good: Alright now. Maybe we can do something about it before it gets too late.

Cupid: Any idea?

Good: I say, get an animal, channel the love back to it. The arrow was meant for the chimpanzee right, so we go get it.

Cupid: Yeah, it sounds simple. I wish it can be as simple as that. What have done is done. I don't think we can reverse the effect.

Evil: Well, we have to try. If not we will be punished and our power maybe be stripped, thanks to someone again.

Good: Look who's talking. I thought you will never worry about the consequences and if you did, this wouldn't have happened in the first place.

Evil : Oh yeah, it seems like someone interrupted and cause this to happen. Duh!

Cupid: Alright, speaking of interruption, I hate to interrupt and I appreciate there are some conversations' going down between you two...

Evil: I would appreciate if you SKIP that pointless part! What?

Cupid: W-What should we do now?

Good: Get the chimpanzee!

(After they got to the chimpanzee, Good and Evil transfer the spell of love back to the chimpanzee with the help of Cupid and it is done. The chimpanzee saw a female chimpanzee and rush to her. The evil saw it and yell.)

Evil: Hey wait!

Good: Wait what? Don't tell me you have not call off your bad intention yet. It almost cause your life!

Evil : (Groan) Could you please stop it. (He chant a spell and two of the chimpanzee fell apart from their cuddle. The male chimpanzee walks towards the Evil. The female chimpanzee start crying.)

Cupid: Do you have any idea what you have done? You just thorn a heart apart and you thorn him (points to the male chimpanzee) apart to. One of the half is belong to him himself but the other doesn't. The owner is still yet to be found and perhaps (points to the female chimpanzee) she is the one.

Evil: No necessarily. (He ordered to chimpanzee to dance, and it dance) See, the owner could possibly be me too.

Good: No! Definitely not you! Dream on you idiot!

Evil: Why not, can't you see he is now mine? Doing what I asked him to do, dance at my will...Hahahahahaha

Good: You will pay for this! ( He wave his hand and the Evil flew a mile away. He got up and teleport to in front of Good. He pulled Good towards him with Good shirt.)

Evil: What are you trying to do?

Good: Saving the innocent.

Evil : I won't let you!

(They continue to fight using their powers. Good manage to hold Evil's power for a while and he shouted at the Cupid.)

Good: Quick, do something!

Cupid：Well, there is nothing I can do. Only human's magic can change that, or unless the chimpanzee's love conquer by themselves (mumbles) But I don't think it will....

(Explosion and two of them flew apart)

Evil: Don't you understand? There is nothing you can do to save them! I will do whatever it takes to make me feel good, including demolishing their relationship! Whatever love it is, nobody cares! And the most important, my power is more powerful than you, Good! And I want to prove that! (He channel a energy wave through his palm and the Cupid and Good flew away. Evil carry the male chimpanzee away and the female is crying.)

Cupid: It seems like nothing we can do. The LOVE will be destroyed.

Good: No Cupid. Trust me, we can. White magic will always win over black magic. Good will defeat evil and it always had. You just have to trust me.

Cupid: But everything is happening in front of us now doesn't tell me that we stand a chance.

Good: Maybe from this angle.

Cupid: No. The angle now is he has taken the male chimpanzee. If Cupid defeated by evil magic, no love will exist anymore. That's the angle.

Good: Angle(Gets an idea) Yeah, angle! We just have to look things at the different angle. Although everything seems wrong now, it can be fixed, as long as we look at it at the different angle and we will find a way to defeat it. Right, just now I can't take on him one on one with my power. Maybe the chimpanzee can!

Cupid: What do you mean?

Good: Alright. You said the chimpanzee's love can conquer the Evil's magic right? And now the Evil is demolishing their relationship. But it's not an end yet. It takes time for him to do that, I know that. So, we still stand a chance!

Cupid: So what can we do now?

Good: Okay. I try to use my power to hold the Evil's one. At the mean time, you get the female chimpanzee and let her see the male one. If there is true love, love conquers all！

Cupid: Sounds like plan.

Good: Yes, it is a plan! Okay let's go!

(They teleported out, The Good teleported to the Evil. The chimpanzee is serving a tea to the Evil.)

Evil: Hi bro. (puts down the tea cup) Never get enough of my power yet?

Good: As the matter of fact, yes. Leave the chimpanzee alone and I will consider not to fight.

Evil: Too bad. (He raise his hand and pushes Good away with a strong energy wave and Good hits the wall.)

Good: You slummy son of bitch!

Evil: Bro, why is that we never see things eye to eye before, not even once. As I said, no one tell me what to do and I, will do whatever it takes to get what I want.

In fact, I found out demolishing a love relationship is so much fun, I never fell in love before though. But destroying it, it is really interesting.

Good: Dream on! (He waved his hand to try to move Evil away and the Evil captured his power)

Evil: Good is always good, dumb in more particular. Can't you see everything is in my favor and you can do nothing about it. Nothing you can do to change it. Well, seems you came to me, in case you haven;t notice, I have turn the chimpanzee a loyal one and definitely, demolishing, listen, DEMOLISHing his relationship with his g-g-girlfriend. I get goosebumps when I say it.

(The Cupid arrive with the female chimpanzee. The Evil saw it and want to get rid of her. The Good use his power to stop him. They started to fight.)

Good: Quick, I can hold it only for a while!

(The male and female chimpanzee saw each other, they stared and they hugged. The spell on male chimpanzee then broken. Evil then flew away and hit the wall after hit by the Good's power.)

Evil: Why? What happened？

Good: You are defeated. That's what happened.

Evil: No, it can't be. That silly chimpanzee can't break my spell. I have demolished the relationship between them.

Cupid: That is love. No matter how far they are, how hurt you've made them, their heart will still be together, it's just matter of time.

Evil: No! (He tries to use his power but nothing happened)

Good: Oh yeah, sorry, forgot to tell ya, I have put your power to a Null so that your demolishing process can stop, once and for all.

Evil: It can't be! My power is always the strongest.

Good: It seems like you are wrong after all, brother. (Looks at Cupid) See? Good always defeat evil, no exception for this time.

Cupid: Good to look things at different angle although it doesn't seems so well at the end.

Good: Yeah, twist a little bit, you'll get it.

Thus, two chimpanzees' love conquer all. Due to the abuse of power, God has taken away human's power ever since then. Human are punished not to have a stand as they used to be, the bright side, they can choose whatever stand they want anytime, any case. Also, human are punished to experience love, experience the taste of the sweet and bitter of love. Well, that's why our life is so miserable right now only because of love.

And, as we can see, our ancestor, Good manage to turn the day around with a little change of the ANGLE and the Evil did not manage to demolish the relationship anymore because the Good has Null it in the process of DEMOlishing.

That is why, The Good named Angle and the Evil called Demon.

-THE END-

与生俱来

很多时候，与生俱来，都是我们在走投无路借口找到尽头以后最后唯一一个依赖的盾。

无论对方的剑来得有多快有多锐，至少这个盾能够暂时先救救你的燃眉之急，买你一些时间。

当你发觉你自己不断的在蹉跎的时候，你会安慰自己说，我生成的；当你一时控制不住火气发飚时，无论过后你有多后悔，你都回告诉自己说，我天生的。

没错，简单来说，与生俱来，就是我们常用的借口----天生的。

同样的，当你喜欢一个人喜欢到无可自拔的时候，做了很多很多疯狂的事，你会告诉自己，喜欢一个人然后在所不惜的为他付出是值得的，因为爱，是天生的。

其实没有错，喜欢一个人，根本就不由你我他来控制。如果事情可以这样简单的话，就不会有那么多爱情小说偶像剧，点子层出不穷地让那些小妹妹‘呕心沥血’花那么多精神在它们身上。社会上也不会有那么多为情自杀案。（干嘛原本要写一个‘感性’的post突然好像变成在写辩论稿议论文之类的@@,我的中文T.T)

喜欢，其实很简单，两个人的心在同一个时候连在一起不就行了。是，可是这些，还不是也要配合天时地利人和。不然两个人在不同的时间上喜欢上对方，又或者是，刚好两个拥有彼此寻找的好，可是很不凑巧的错的时候遇到，也是不行。

如果他不曾让我遇见，如果他长得不是那个样子，如果当时的他不让我那么的冲动，应该我现在的生活，还过得好好的。不是说我现在的生活不好，只是，好和更好，就只有那么一线之差，而他，就握着这那条线，主控者我接下来的生活。

我记得认识他是在我‘必做’的名单里的事情之一。我也不知道所谓的‘吸引力法则’是不是真的那么灵验，我就这样认识了他。可是认识他之前，好像有一股与生俱来的力量告诉我，让我相信，我会认识他的。但是现在认识他之后到彼此不说话（也许只是我在逃避他来说服我自己接受这个不可能），我依然还在想，如果我持续相信下去，我们会不会在一起。。。

如果可以选择忘记的话，我当然会，问题是，我可以吗？

我不知道为什么我会遇见他 ，我也搞不懂为什么当时我可以那样冲动。如果没有那股冲动的勇气，也许现在的我不会除了越踏越深以外，还是一步一步地越踏越深。

喜欢，是与生俱来的，我希望学会放弃也是。

Bar Professional Training Course Sept 2011 application.

Well, today, finally, as I said, my BPTC application deadline has been extended and I got the link.

Right after I copy and paste on the BPTC website(as I was told), it comes out to the page I want only when I am using Firefox. I can't access to it through Google Chrome.

Anyway, I can access to it and submit!

The bright side, no any refill needed because apparently I was able to submit the form but not payment so now I can't make any alteration on it and now the Board just have to take my payment and my BPTC application has been officially submitted!!!

The bad thing, I can't change if I see something I am not satisfied of, but at least I can't change that means I wont spend a whole day to stare at the form without doing anything, it is a good thing too. LOL

Herein attached with the whole form that I have completed that day in rush, and what I have to do is, wait and hope for a good answer and I believe yeah, I can make it!!!

The September 2011 BPTC application form of mine:

Cho Kang Lew

Bio Data
Title	Mr
Address	20 Llanbleddian Gardens Room 1 Cathay Cardiff CF24 4AT
Country	United Kingdom
Telephone number	07510709411
Given name(s)	Cho Kang
Family name	Lew
Date of birth	13/03/1989
Nationality	Malaysian
Please provide your passport number	A22833229
Country of birth	Malaysia
Country of domicile or permanent residence?	Malaysia
If you are not a British national please state the date of your most recent entrance into the UK (apart from holidays) if applicable.	23/09/2010
Are you a home, EU or international student?	International
Do you consider yourself to have a disability?	No
Academic Stage of Training for The Bar
Academic Stage of Training	Law Degree (QLD)
Academic stage of training - QLD
Institution	Cardiff University
Course	LLB Law
Penultimate year grade	2.1
Final year grade	To be notified
Total period of study	3 years full-time
Length of course enrolled on	3 Years Full-Time
Start date	01/12/2008
End date	01/06/2011
Have you transferred credit from one Qualifying Law Degree provider to another during your QLD course?	Yes
Please name the Institution from which you are transferring credit	Cardiff University
Have you applied for and obtained a Certificate of Academic Standing (Credit Transfer) from The Bar Standards Board?	No
School Education
Name of school	SMK Sri Sentosa
School address	Jalan Kuchai Lama Kuala Lumpur Malaysia
Date started	02/01/2002
Date finished	31/12/2008
Type of qualification	Other
List subjects and grades	General Studies - A Chemistry - C+ Biology - B-
Qualification date	31/12/2008
Higher Education
University	Cardiff University
University address
Degree taken	Degree
Attendance status	Full-time
Grade	To be notified
Subject	Law
Start date	27/09/2010
Date finished	17/06/2011
Employment History
Employer name	Star RFM (M) Sdn Bhd
Employer address	988, Star RFM Sdn Bhd, 19th Floor, Bangunan AmAssurance, 1 Jalan Lumut, 50400 Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia
Employer country	Malaysia
Employment position	News editor
Employment date from	28/12/2008
Employment date to	30/04/2010
Please give details of your responsibilities	This company owns a few of radio stations and a newspaper. I worked in one of the radio station. My tasks were gather the news from time to time, get interviews, draft, write and edit the news before broadcasting. Also, I was assistant producer to a morning show and my responsibilities are picking up the calls from listeners, discuss the programmes that should be running everyday in the show, calling out to get interviews and voice over for the show, edit the voice over before broadcasting and assist in directing the radio announcer in the flow of the show.
Reason for leaving	It was a short period that I was working in that company because I had to leave to study abroad in United Kingdom.
Where applicable, how did this post help you to develop skills relevant to practising as a barrister?	I was exposed to a current issues that is happening to around me all that while which developed my skill to be aware and concern about current issues. As a lawyer, it is important to know and get around with the news happening everyday especially the changes in law as law changes from time to time. It is extremely crucial to know if the law changes as this could effectively affect the job as a barrister. No expired law that is applicable. Thus, I had a bigger exposure in surroundings. Besides that, the interview process and communicate with listener would also benefit me for legal field as good communication and interpersonal skills are required. Furthermore, I was a guest once in the show and my superior complimented me that I performed well in the show. Being a guest in a live talk show should has a good spontaneous speaking skill which it is proved that I do possess when my superior complimented me.
Employer name	DTSD MArketing Sdn Bhd
Employer address	37-3 , Jalan 10/116B, Kuchai Entrepreneur’s Park,Off Jalan Kuchai Lama, 58200 Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.
Employer country	Malaysia
Employment position	Telemarketer
Employment date from	28/12/2008
Employment date to	30/04/2010
Please give details of your responsibilities	My tasks were cold calling to the customers, gathering and compiling the customers' information and I was also Head of Telemarketing department which held interview to new telemarketers as well as attended meeting with the Director of the company.
Reason for leaving	As it was examination period for my second year of law degree and I require a full concentration on my study in order for me to get into a good University. Thus, I left the job.
Where applicable, how did this post help you to develop skills relevant to practising as a barrister?	Telemarketing requires a lot of communicating, interpersonal and speaking skills, which is also required by being a barrister. As we have no idea who are we calling out and the customers do not expect our calls, we might get scolded and hung up anytime. We are requires to think and speak spontaneously as customers that we could be facing consists of all type of people. However, I was coping well with that and I am the only telemarketer in the company who was able to hit the target every week. being the Head of Telemarketer and attending meeting with Director is where I developed my skill to organize the documents and informations and convey the message accurately to my fellow telemarketers.
Skills
Language skills. Please indicate your first language and fluency in any other languages.	My first language is Mandarin but besides that I do know English and Malay language as well. I can write, read, comprehend three of those languages. Other than that, I can speak a few of language in Chinese for example Cantonese and Hakka.
Computing skills	As a student, I was excellent in Microsoft Office Excel, Words and Power Point. As being a being a barrister requires a lot of research skill which I had already developed it throughout my legal studies as I need to research and gather informations for my assignments, examination as well as my extra curricular activities such as mooting and Pro Bono. Lexis and Nexis and West Law are definitely familiar to me.
Jurisdiction
Jurisdiction where you intend to practise	England & Wales
Inn Details
Inn of Court	Lincoln's Inn
Inn of Court membership status	Application yet to be made
As of	01/01/2011
Previous BVC / Bar Examination attempts
Have you previously attempted a BVC?	No
Supporting Evidence
Please detail any mini-pupillages or other Bar related experiences that you have undertaken.	I had taken my initiative to involve myself in the legal field ever since I found out I am interested in Law. I participated in a student attachment programme in Arifin and Partners, a legal firm in Malaysia when I finished my high school education in Malaysia. Unlike ordinary firms in Malaysia, due to the high number of lawyers and partners in the firm, the firm has offered various legal services. The services varied from family, tort, trusts, bankruptcy and accidents' cases. It exposes me to not only to a certain law but many. My tasks and responsibilities were depending on the employer's will but mostly, my jobs were compiling and organising legal documents and files, amending the judgement's documents and basically working as an assistant clerk of my employers. At the same time, I have gained a lot of knowledge regarding to the legal field, even before I started to pursue my legal studies. It helped a lot as the experienced lawyers in the firm was more than happy to share their knowledge and experience that they have learned during their whole professional practicing period. Drafting legal documents, winding up a company, property auctioning and evidence handling were being taught at that time.In addition, my employers did bring me to various places which I considered it was very eye opening. I have attended to court room and a few auctioning sessions. Ever since I grasped this tiny bit of law's nature, I believe that being lawyer is what I want all these times. Seeking justice for underpriviledged and aiding the needed would be my principle in this legal business. During my year of legal studies in Cardiff University, I took part in mooting competition by the Law School and I have more roles to play other than being a participant.I was a mooter and also a judge for a few rounds in the competition. Although it was the first time I took part in this event, I find it very interesting and I am sure that is what I want in my future life. In short, I am confident to say I am no ordinary law scholar. I am studying law not for the sake of studying it. I like law for how it can bring order to humanity. I have lived exposing myself in the legal business before I was enrolled into the course. I would love to continue living this special life, as an barrister, bearing the responsiblilty of bringing justice to the masses.
Please explain why you want to train as a barrister.	Challenge, I am looking for.As a lawyer, holding to justice and protecting the law are no doubt a mandatory duty. But it is the passion that deviates an oridnary legal officer from a great justice seeker.I would choose to become a barrister instead of solicitor because I am sure of my true place-to-be. Knowing my own self is no more important than anything and fortunately, I know myself is not cut out for the nine to five pace life. I should be standing, in the middle of a court room,during a trial, taking pride when every single word I speak is to defend the last forte of justice. I would say, it will be more challenging in my daily life than a solicitor. Barristers are the one who bear the burden to advocate for their client which make his work way more interesting compared to a solicitor who working environment comprises more of paper works. Besides, barrister's job does not stop on the paperworks but it also involves representing the client in court. I do not wish to stay aside and watch helplessly when another barrister is defending our client. Given some times to hone my skills,I strongly believe that I am capable of representing my client in court, convincing the judge how my client deserves the fair and justice. That is also why barrister is in a better position of seeking fairness to me. If I would want to step up and help, I have to do it myself. I am the one who tell my client that he or she if she can wins in a certain case and I am the one who suppose to do it. Words and feeling could not be expressed entirely from one to another and it is so, I would perform my job as a lawyer, which is passionate and enthusiastic to look for justice for my client better as a barrister. Also, I am a person who like to speak, advocate, persuade and convince. Barristers' nature of work will suit me best.
Please provide specific examples of your ability to quickly and accurately analyse large amounts of written information.	First of all, I took part in Pro Bono Scheme that was held by my school, Cardiff Law School. As before attending the Pro Bono training, I was given a whole stack of documents to read through and understand what is the training session about. Although it was not compulsory for me to know about everything before the session, but I set it as a goal for me. I was not given a lot of time as the documents was given a few days before the session. Besides, it even sometimes those information or papers are only given right after I entered the room. However, I was able to go through those documents quickly and therefore I understand the procedure and the session fairly well. Other than that, I was a mooter. I was also given a limited time to research, prepare the skeleton argument and my speech and luckily I was able to get through it as I believe that I posses the skill of fast reading no matter how much the information are. When I was a judge in a mooting competition, the briefing for judges was only an hour before the actual mooting starts. In that case, I was required to analyse and get familiar the case in one hour with documents which I was also able to perform well. As mentioned, I can accurately analyse a large amount of written documents albeit the work loads in my study. Last but not least, while I was a student attachment in the legal firm, one of my task is to organise the documents according to various event by reading the information inside. I was only able to do so if I were familiar with the law which at that time, I know nothing about the legal field. I was provided some books so that I can cope with the company's demand and I did it excellently.
Please provide specific examples of when you have displayed exceptional communication and/or interpersonal skills.	I was Head Perfect, who is equivalent to the student representative in my high school. However, I was elected in different way from all former head perfect. As for my case, I was voted and elected by all the teachers in school, compared to the conventional way which is chosen by senior committee members of the board. In the way of me being chosen, it clearly shows that I am good in communicating and socialising with people. My high school's dicipline is famous across the State that I am living in, Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia and thus the duty of head perfect who is responsible for governing the school rules should not be taken lightly. In that highly competitive circumstances, I was able to out stand myself among all other candidates and make a good impression on all teachers is proved that I worthy of such important role. Besides, I was also a student reporter for a newspaper company in Malaysia. I have interviewed all walks of people and organizing state level events from time to time, which obviously where I improve and strengthen my interpersonal skills. I happened to be the president of the Student Reporting Body that time. The student reporters are chosen among the best students in respective school in all over the country and I was a president among the best students proved I have a strong leading skill to earn their respect. I was chosen to join the National Service in Malaysia, similar to an military training and lasts for three months. It consists of people who are from different ethnic backgrounds and we are expected to communicate with everybody. It was difficult as people from different background will be having communication failure sometimes due to the different thought and living culture. However, I was able to mix up with all of them and we do still contact each other until today.
Please provide specific examples of how you have developed your advocacy and public speaking skills, preferably since the age of 18.	As mentioned, I was the Head Prefect in my high school, when I was 18 to 19 years old. Based on the best knowledge before I leave the school, the amount of the students in my high school was about 2200 students and I was at the zenith of the student level. Apart from holding scholl assembly weekly, I have to give a speech on special occasion and I convey the messages from teachers to all of them. This experience was non other than speaking to thousands of fellow students. It was no doubt that I possess a very good public speaking skill. Other than that, I have about 100 prefects who are under my command as well. It is my duty to speak to them in every meeting with no fear and full confident in order to lead them on dealing with school rules and especially problematic students. As the leader of the school rule-enforcers, I also bear the responsibility to help my fellow prefects, regardless study or duty-wise. It is crucial for me to know how to advocate and confront them. For the most problematic students will be brought before me as well and I was expected to deal with them without bringing to teachers to keep the trouble to a minimal level. There are particular ways to deal with delinquents which requires advocacy so that they will abide by the rules in the future. In addition, I was required to deal with principal in some matters and by meeting them, I clearly needs sufficient advocacy skill to cope with the needs. Also, I was an active debater. I took part in many inter-school debate competition since I was 14 years old and I won the first cup in debate competition for my school and later, I was also chosen to be the best debater in Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia in an interstate debate competition. I am the first in my high school to achieve such honour in debating. It provens more that I possess a well advocacy and public speaking skills.
Please describe a time when you have been particularly under pressure and how you organised your work.	When I was in Malaysia and reading my first and second year of law, I was working as well. As a law student, the amount of work loads is already a lot but I have to cope with my work without ignoring my study. There was once that me as a tutor in a tuition center needs to compile the past year examination papers for my tutees. The dateline is so happened to crash with one of my assignment's deadline. At the same time, I am having pressure from my job as telemarketer to hit the target every week. However, I was manage to cope with them and manage all of them using my time management skill. I was able to finish all of them on time and I got a good marks for that assignment while I achieved the goal of the week as telemarketer.
References
Title	Dr
Forename	Christine
Surname	Byron
Position	Lecturer in Law
Address	Cardiff Law School, Cardiff University, Law Building, Museum Avenue, Cardiff, CF10 3AX
Country	United Kingdom
Telephone number	029 208 4631
Email address	ByronC@cf.ac.uk
Title	Mr
Forename	Raja
Surname	Singham
Position	Managing Director
Address	Brickfields Asia College 68-2, Jalan Tun Sambanthan, Brickfields, 50470 Kuala Lumpur.
Country	Malaysia
Telephone number	03-22744165
Email address	r.singham@bac.edu.my
Application Details
First choice	Cardiff Law School - Full time course
Please state the reason for this choice	It is because I am familiar with the environment and it is nice. Cardiff is a good, pretty and a nice city and of course, Cardiff University has a good Law School.Besides, it provides the modules that I want.
Second choice	College of Law Birmingham - Full time course
Please state the reason for this choice	The University is a reputable one and the cost is cheap.
Third choice	City Law School - Full time course
Please state the reason for this choice	The price affordable and I would like to experience a student life in London.

These are what I got straight after I log in and copy paste on the Firefox browser.

Everything will definitely goes well for me!

Yeah, I can make it, I believe, no matter what obstacles are in my way.

And I will find my way to USA(LA-law/acting) and 988 too!

"I am always the lucky one' afterall---Michael Yang=)

童话

英国时间差不多凌晨1点半。

很久没有用中文了。就突然间，看见很多blog都在用中文，用心去读了它们 ，激发起一股想写一篇中文的post。希望在一段长期没有写中文作文的副作用下，不要英文没进步，中文反而更退步 。

没有美丽的字眼，没有精致的句子，没有惊天地、泣鬼神德故事，就这么简简单单的一个久违的中文post。

从以前到现在都还是认为，方块字远远比那来来去去也都只是由那26个英文字母拼来拼去的英文来得美，对我来说，它更适合用来抒发情绪，尤其是感性的那一种（也许是我英文差吧，呵呵）

绮莉突然提起她小时候的童话故事，提起外国留学生‘人在异乡’的‘一个人的寂寞’可以有多浪漫朵美丽，突然想起，欧洲之所以可以因为浪漫而闻名四海，应该那些所有来至欧洲（芬兰、爱尔兰、德国、丹麦等等）的童话故事做了不少的贡献。

所以很多人都向往欧洲，她说我身在福中不知福，应该享受现在我所拥有的，不要只会嚷着要去那个-Land of Possible 的美国。（可是还有我的第二号国家德国也是欧洲之一啊，哈哈）

好了，老毛病，总是啰里啰唆的还没有到重点 。Well, I was rambling all the way through, wasn't I? LOL

Okay.

童话。

如果童话真的出现的话，我就是里面从来不备受注目过的故事里王宫外白马上公主期待的---王子，身边的一个奴隶。谁可以告诉我，有谁曾经眇过他一眼，又或许是有谁会记得他长什么样子。也许，王子身边根本就没有奴隶，因为凭着他，故事就有够精彩，有够完整了，谁会在乎谁是奴隶，又或者是根本有没有奴隶。

我曾经告诉我自己，世界上没有童话，至少是，我没有童话。

童话故事根本就不属于我。

安徒生在他的自传中说：

“人生就是一个童话。充满了流浪的艰辛和执着追求的曲折，我的一生居无定所，我的心灵漂白无依，童话是我流浪一生的阿拉丁神灯。”

“我把家建在海上，那冰蓝色的液体，注定了我一生的漂白。”

他的人生，他的童话，可是我没有定无居所，心灵不被允许漂白无依，所以我的人生里，没有童话。

童话，造就了他的一生，童话，让他名流百世。可是他可以告诉我吗，王子公主那种凄惨得来又很简单的爱情故事，真的存在吗？王子和公主就真的这样过着幸福美满的日子？“Living happily ever after”，就那么简单的结束了每一个童话故事？

又或者换另外一个角度，王子,按字面上来看，就是国王的儿子，公主也就是国王的女儿，这样不就是乱伦？又或者，如果是两个帝国的婚姻，那王子的父王和母后呢？为什么从来没有出现过？为什么无论大大小小的场合都只有公主的父母？为什么永远看来公主的父母独霸天下，可以为所欲为？如果没有两个帝国那么复杂，那么为什么王子是王子？尤其是在他成婚之前，他凭什么被称为王子？

从不知道哪一岁哪一年，我就知道，童话故事不属于我，我没有否定童话故事的存在，也许王子和公主就这样被几只怪兽几个巫婆撮合了，可是真的这样简单？如果这样的话，我就不用天天告诉我自己不用再想他。如果我的那一颗人肉做成让你为爱情疯狂白痴的心可以被漂白，我愿意。

曾经以为，我有什么不能扛的，这个世界上有什么那么了不起？结果，我还是败了给他。

无论那个他是哪一个他，不重要了，因为没有一个我可以克服过。

当时飞来英国之前，猛告诉自己会没事的，飞过来过后就可以忘记他，结果那天发现，在跟他‘webcam'过后，我心里面的一个很小很小很远很远的一个角落，还有他。

就算是比他之前的那个他，我清楚知道，我还有保留了位子给他。

英国，一个我应该重新生活的地方，老天爷偏偏就很喜欢这样，又给我遇见了这个他。

我知道一向以来我很向往德国美国，而这个他，不知道是不是长得跟那个德国明星几分相似，就这样我的那颗没有定力的烂心又被他的一举一动，那样不受控制的牵动着。

我知道如果我要有自己的童话，就要去相信童话。可是有时候，老套一句，期望越高失望就越大。在英国遇见一个我梦寐以求明星脸的他，我也以为我遇见了童话，我爱情运还是不差。

可是事情往往就没有那么简单，他不是童话故事里面王宫里头就永远只有一位等着你去救的心地善良可怜又漂亮公主，再加上我也不确定，我是不是他的王子。可是越来越多的巧合告诉我，我不是。

我知道其实我的内心还在挣扎，有好多个他，到底我真正要的，是谁。很模糊。

就这样，我们有没有说话了几个月。其实很想很想告诉他，我没有跟他说话，只是我在努力的把他给忘掉，或者至少我的心情不会被他影响到七上八下。很想很想告诉他，我不跟他说话，只是我在很努力的说服自己，他不是我的，我不是他的，他不值得我去这样，他不是个好人，他很不好看，他不是我的那一型， 他不认识我------这一切一切，因为我知道，我很喜欢他！

是，那个我知道很久可是又不承认的事实，那个我很讨厌的真相---我很喜欢他！

10月12号，那一堂课，那一天为了那对他一见钟情傻乎乎的爱情的冲动带来的主动，我们认识的第一天，他会站在课室外跟我聊天直到讲师 来了他才进班的那一天，他邀请我到他家的第一天，他说要约我们（我和朋友）去喝茶的第一天，一切都历历在目。

那一刻我肯定，他就是我的童话。

天天幻想我和他在一起会有多开心，天天期待我和他在一起的一天，天天制造我和他可能的童话。。。。。。

不过我清楚知道，我没有童话。

因为奴隶从来没有出现过。

Relief

Hopefully everything will be continuously fine.

Today, after complaining my situation to Nicholas, my 'Phoebe' here in Cardiff, so called younger brother...he told me better to pace or hasten the BPTC officer before everything is too late, we we know, UK people are known for their slow speed work too.

For that reason, I came back to my house after having the brunch at Woodville Bar although originally I don't plan to call them again since I had been bugging them a lot for past few days.

For that unsuccessful submission, I never had a life for few days. Well, just right after I checked my email before make a call (although I checked it in LPC library before my brunch), the email appeared!

It said I will get another link tomorrow and I have to fill in within 24 hours.

Long story short, my deadline had been extended!!!YEAH!Finally, I can get a relief.

But, I have to rewrite everything as that is a new form =.=

How lame is that. But, I can't complain, at least my deadline is extended.

Luckily, part of my answer i have saved. LOL

So, like Ee Li told me, maybe something bad happens at first doesn't mean it is really bad.

For a the while I was worrying about my application, sometimes I just don't feel like talking about it.

Few people knew about that i.e Wai Kwan who helped me marks my answer, Ee Li who bear with me all the while when I am applying, Li Ching who I asked some help before.

I was also worrying if the God know I always has been looking forward to USA so He ban one of the option that holding me back so that I can concentrate on my goal, or He wants me to go back and work in 988 as that is also my dream too.

I even plan what to do if my deadline couldn't be extended!

Go back Malaysia and work for 988 in the mean time look for the route to become lawyer in USA. Or, go straight to LA and take up acting class? LOL

Besides worrying and trying my best to keep it to myself at first, I complaint to my hubby. Michael Yang.

The sentence he used - 'You are always the lucky one', seriously calm me down.

I always know, just like my instinct told me that I can make through it but somehow I don't really dare to rely fully on it.

I just need someone to convince me. And, every time if I complain something or worrying about something, Mr Michael Yang will always tell me 'don't worry' and somehow really make me less worry. LOL

So, I have faith in him, and also me, and yeah, the deadline is extended! I love you man, my hubby! haha.

Don't know why you are always able to clam me down, or maybe you are the only one so far? LOL

So all my worries disappear !

Hopefully everything will go very well for me soon. Good luck with everything I am about to do or apply. At least, it goes in the way I want it to be=)

About why suddenly I can get a website crash and cause this much of hassle, I have really no idea.

Maybe just one thing, everything happens for a reason.

Coincidence, it's just we haven't find out the reason behind.

LUCK!

This time, I seriously need my luck right now!

BPTC application!!!

Maybe it is somehow everything happens for a reason but I have no idea what reason is behind this and really hope whatever it is, it better be a good one.

PLEASE. My future is there!

100th day in United Kingdom

Not today, not the day I post this post.

December 31st 2010, the last day of a century's year, it so happens that it is also my 100th day in United Kingdom!

I flew on September 22nd 2010 and officially left my first foot step on this long historical huge ruling mainland on 23rd. Start counting from September 23rd, December 31st will exactly be my 100th day in this country.

100days, in this totally stranger country, well, I think I had been living good here.

Besides, I have learned a lot. A whole new country, a whole new life, a whole new experience.

I learned the way the British speak.

I learned the University life is not easy as I thought.

I learned the life here does not really fun as it seems.

I learned the University Residence does not really great as compared to others.

I learned the city does not seems happening as it supposes to be.

I learned the British/whites/locals living culture are totally different from ours.

I learned no one here will treats me as good as I get back home.

I learned being selfish is just human nature.

I learned the thinking of whites are really odd to us.

I learned no one here will says me straight about the way I have been acting as the real friends and family could.

I learned falling in love is sucks, and somehow even sucks in here.

I learned I can do more things at will here, in some way.

I learned I actually do miss many things in Malaysia many times even though I am into western so much.

I learned the family is always the best remedy.

I learned no friends can compete with who I had, and still having in Malaysia, 3+3 and others.

I learned love, not only something out of my hand, but something beyond my thought.

I learned being outstanding is not hard, but being different is.

I learned I had, in fact I have to grow up.

I learned I actually do have a lot of family burdens to carry at this age.

I learned the older we get, the more responsibility we have.

I learned nothing will comes for free.

From Malaysia To United Kingdom,

From University Hall To Student Houses,

From Cardiff to London,

From 21s To 22s,

From a boy who thought he knew everything To a guy who is now thinking where he should fits in this world,

From a teenager who was only working and getting some income which is obviously not enough To a University student who has to save, calculate and worry about daily expenditure, but still a teens,

From a kid who earning MYR to a person who have to worry about how to earn GBP as the next step,

From a naive guy who set his goal to reside in Los Angeles, California To a boy who has to realize it will not be that easy, but that is still his dream, always his dream,

From working in 988 which is seriously in the process of achieving his real dream To adapting the brand new life in whole new country and worrying if he can goes back to work and resume the road of achieving his dream in an unlikely event that he has to goes back to Malaysia for the rest of his life,

From a person who thinks earning that little insufficient money is considered fine To now realize that he actually has a whole family burden to carry as the eldest child, at least sometimes soon,

From a person who thinks he just pretty good at just about everything he did To a guy who found out he has no choice but has to be that way,

From a guy who always likes to fake American accent To now sometimes he has to,

I changed.

I did change a lot, didn't I? At least I hope so.

But one thing, procrastination still remains, I wanted to get rid of it but I can't do anything about it, not anytime soon, I don't know why.

Sometimes I just wonder, how will I do if I did not choose this route in the first place?

What if I am studying UoL, will I be living the way I am now? Will I be working in 988 which is one of my ultimate dreams?

Or, what if I did not study law and took the offer from local university and went to UMS for my forestry course?

I don't understand, why are people can get so many sorts of funding for them to study abroad but I can't?

Why didn't I take the initiative to ask?

Life is hard, I know that, no one told me it was easy, but nobody ever told me it was that hard too!

All right, no point looking back to something that I can't change. It is not like I got all day to worry about.

Time runs, sun rises, earth rotates, no matter what I do.

I know my financial situation and family background is different from all other of my friends, I did not choose to and frankly it sucks. But since I am in that position, I just gotta do it, whatever it takes, no matter how.

Just because I am poor for now, doesn't mean that I am useless and destined to be poor for my future life.

Or the more reason for me to work hard now!

Since I had already be here, stick to my plan, and keep moving on.

I have to apply for BPTC, at the mean time keep an eye on the Tier 1 working permit, and in few years time after gaining some experience, I can fly to USA and achieve my dream!

So no worries about not getting to USA, UK is just a stepping stone all right? You know, sort of 'kick the tyre' here first so that I can adapt to the life in USA ALONE fast in the future!

Now, study hard and work hard! When I say 'work', I mean literally work to get money!

I know my family members want to be so proud of me, especially my mom can talk about me aloud in front of her 'showing off-aunties friends'.

I want my family to fly here, proud and happy on July 22nd 11am for a very valid good reason.

Not only that, I want myself to be totally satisfied with my achievement too!

In the event that I have to go back to Malaysia for my working life, which I don't want to, I must apply for 988(the easiest for me so far, I think), don't forget that's my dream too!

I know,

'Always aim for the sky, because even if you fall, you can at least reach the cloud.'

And recently got the quote from my friend,

'When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place.'

Besides, I worked too hard for me to give it all up now, I suppose.

I believe,

The amount of what I have worked for, will pay off one day, equivalently! Or sometimes even more!

Nothing will comes for free, remember?

No pains, no gains.

Love? Screw it! Stand out of my way and stay away from my life!

I hope I can do that though.

So, just always go for what I aim for!

Tornadoes, volcanoes, hurricanes, tsunami, earthquakes or whatever obstacle, come and get me!

You won't turn me down!

2011, you will be my year!!!

I'll do my part, and YOU'll do your part, okay?deal?

Whoever the YOU is.

Fair and Square.

(THIS SONG MAY SUIT THIS POST BEST:-)

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