blogging in the early morning

17/3/2009 8:23am

haha..first time online and blogging in the early morning...actually was started online yesterday night and havnt offline till now coz have to read a case which i cant read it under sleepy mind yesterday,so put pc to sleep and continue just now....hopefully the pc wont suffer from problem,if not i will suffer...

yesterday went out with francis...really jealous his life....happy go lucky...and actually have a lot of feeling appearing in me...but no way to express it..or maybe can say in other words,dunno how to express it...really jealous his life...suddenly feel that i am a complicated person..haha

STPM result have een out for a week.haizz...when think about it,it's hurt...and embarassing..how i can get the bad result?now dunno whether can i enter local U esp law in particular..or watever..as long as local U...really worry...

have to get to school later...many ppl said,i ady start studying at college,what to worry???but..haiz..dunno how to answer..

that all for first time blogging in the early morning today...wish me lucks...

my birthday

14/3/2009 3:11am

ya...its already 14th....my birthday is over...

3+3 juz went home..ya,in dis time...actually felt sorry to them...coz its quite difficult for everyone of us back home so late nowadays..(although we did that to jx oso yesterday,haha...)

well,juz to thanks them...thanks everyone for wishing me happy birthday...and thanks my mum raise me up too..haha

this year get a nike bag for present...from 3+3...thanks a lot...jiayu,lifang,maychin,jiaxi then me later jennyu....birthday is the day that can strengthen our bond especially now everyone is busy with our life...

this year jiayu,maychin did a big celebration...for lifang,still the same,online...for me and jiaxi,haha...i think we celebrate our birthday one day later this year..cz we went to jx's house at 11pm and he back at 12.40am...for me,they went here at about 1am..haha...quite special ca previous year i did celebrate birthday at 12am 13/3(nite of 12/3,after jx birthday)..haha..although not really big celebation, but its satisfy enough when they came in late nite...i appreciate it alot,i think jx will think tat way too...

anyway,juz thank you 3+3...for being my fren..and thank you everyone...

a lot of complicated feeling now,dunno what n how to express(not becoz of they came to my house at late night issue)...suddenly think of many things...sad,loneliness,scare....as conclusion,Happy Birhday to me!!!

hope everything goes right..have a gud luck in brand new 20th years old!!!

STPM results day

12/3/2009 1:08am

skipped one or two days for blogging....

finally....there comes results day....i didnt go and collect with whole bunches of fren that day due to my class...saying i have class...in fact is dun dare to face it moreover in front of so many brilliant out there....

while thinking of checking online in my college pc lab,jx called.but silly francis talking on the other side and finally he told me(ya,i asked for it actually at the end)..

well...is still in my expectations..no really bad feeling at the first place...still can celebrate happily with 3+3 and others till 1am in neway karaoke..

hour after hour..its quite hurt actually..why i can only get the result?why dun i sit for mandarin?how i am going to apply local U with this sucking result?so many why and how that no one kno how to answer even myself...

everyone who same standard with me manage to get a better result than me..what's going on???what happen to me???

i guess i am the worst in school...how am i suppose to face this?where is my future?totally lost...

no regret taking STPM...i learnt a lot..Form 5&6 life is a sweet moment for me indeed..but regret not taking mandarin...

keeping MUET,STPM results,skol leaving cert yesterday....well,becoming history now,end of one part of my life journey..time to face a lot more of challenges..long way to go in my life...

STPM..history made..a significant mark of life indeed with the worst result in the world..

well,life have to go on..work hard in the Degree doing now...

but,sometimes,still,its tiring...exhausting...mentally....

First day on 'posting' blog

10 march 2009 1:33am

this date will be a historical date.coz i just really intend to start blogging seriously...
although created on 31/12/2008..today is the first day i start and learn blogging...

about 9 more hours...STPM 2008 result releasing soon...relly dunno how to explain the feeling now..nervous?nope.scare?not really...excited?a liitle bit..
that is..complicated...wat i feel now..complex feeling...

am i going to get 2 principal passes?can i get a satisfactory result?man!!!dying to know..but dun dare to even think about it..

one word...complicated...

wish me luck at 12pm 10/3/2009...

lew cho kang...no matter how...face it...