Did I changed?

I wonder, all this while, all the act I have been doing, all the thing I have done, all the thought I have been holding...Did I changed?

Ever since I came to UK, I realize maybe something changed in me. I am not sure.

I discovered, proved, found out, seen something, that makes me somehow, realize something.

Just like I know there is nothing normal in the world.

Normal, is just the way the majority think they are, think they 'supposed' to be.

Acting different from majority, is that to be considered abnormal? Not only human, many other living and non living things.

The definition of 'normal' will changes, if perception of the world change.

After all, normal - just the most people way of thinking.

This a part of message that I chat with my friend, a very very close friend, or I should say siblings...

''er.actually all this while i know what i had been doing.
and maybe something deep inside, i never tell anyone thats why no one can really understand me, no one i can really talk about when come to some thing that affect me, bother me and distracting me a lot.
and some times i just wonder why i even deserve that.
it's not because i don't want to tell, just i don't know how to tell.
or maybe i am not the one who you think i am, analogical speaking.
maybe something you haven't learn about me?er, i am not sure.
but i know, everything i have done, i did it for a reason.
no worries, i am handling it and i had it under control. at least i hope i can.

well, somehow i think i am in deep shit of psychological problem also.lol''

The point is, I never say that to anyone before, neither family or closet friends. Maybe something that I was trying to hide inside for so long, this is one step that I am taking forward to. It took a lot of guts for me to do that.

So, did I changed? I don't know.

Or maybe, things just weren't the way they were.