CONFESSION

It is probably the most significant date in my life.

November 3rd 2011, about 2.30pm ++ after Criminal Litigation and Evidence Session.

I made my biggest and bravest confession in my life, the confession which might affects my whole and the rest of my life, to a guy I just met after I started my BPTC in Nottingham.

Peter, he is one of my course mate, as well as the same seminar group we are in.

As we have more seminars than lectures in this course, strictly speaking most of them are seminars, thus we began to knew each other, probably more and more.

I accidentally found out he is in my situation too, without him trying to cover up anything, when we walked to Ropewalk Chambers to submit our mooting bundle.

It took me a lot of courage, after contemplating a long while, avoiding to see him by giving excuses although I was the first asked him to meet up right before one week reading week holiday as I have something to consult him.

He took the first initiative to resume the 'meeting up', as I got no idea to face it, that's why I chose to pretend to forget it.

Finally, today(strictly speaking yesterday), probably I caught him in surprise too, after beating around the bush, I said something which I really can't imagine I will be saying one day.

My heart was pounding, blood was rushing, body was warming, and I did it.

Unfortunately he hadn't got much time. He thought it wasn't a good time and good place to talk about that topic too. We left it there and he suggested it is a lot more we can talk about and probably save it for the next time, couple of days later.

Anyway, with his advice, I hope I have more confident in getting my pupillage in UK. As my sponsor said, be persistent.

And hopefully couple of days later, I might be able to find out more about myself, who I am and who I really want to become.

This was a HUGE confession, in my life.