Venting

Some friends think you are smart, some friends think you are stupid. Never mind going for those who think you are stupid, then see how you impress the ignorant.:D

Those who you want to impress are not who those you actually want to be friend with?

LOL!

Hello, think I am annoying and you are so cool yelling at me in the library? Maybe I am annoying, haha, but alas, you are not cool too:)

Because people around might thought I was annoying you but at the same time they will think you are emotional too because you just can't control yourself.

Right, they might do not know the whole situation and yeah, that's exactly what I wanted to say!

They will get annoyed by you because they do not know what type of person exactly you are and yelling in the library definitely not a good impression you made(and you might think you are very cool) but er....

Oh, and this might be the first time I speak to you since 2012? How many times I have ever spoken to you? Not even many, right.:)

Oh by the way, as you wish, I truly deeply sincerely think I am suffering from a little bit of autistic or just get sick of of socializing or no point networking with you guys... I do not know. Maybe you were absolutely right and have every right to yell at me :p

Oh no, I am turning into devil or some sort of antagonist now =.='''

Then a friend came, I just got so heartfelt, when the friend again (repeatedly) said and told me I am those 'haggle over every ounce' type.

I almost burst into tears but luckily I didn't. Haha.

People, please, I tell you I am poor, I mean it! I didn't say it for the sake of saying it or asking for sympathy or something. I am just telling you why I can't join you, the truth.

And, sorry if it turns out not what I intended. Next time I will instead find a better excuse to lie to you then. Since your proposal or expression or words suggesting you would prefer that way.

Thank you!

If I am not as poor as you think, I do not have to work and constantly look for jobs while you enjoying your life.

You may think I am lifeless and say whatever you want, I don't mind.:)

I skyped with my mom yesterday and I was told by the fact that I am really seriously in need of money and saving money, as in not spending too much. Listen, it is 'not spending too much', not 'overspending'. Overspending is more luxurious and yes I couldn't afford that.

I didn't tell anyone how 'suffering' my life is here because even though I felt it, I do not feel I am really that pity and I am writing it out now is just for own personal venting, please don't take it personally and do not sympathize me. This is not suppose to mean anyway in that direction.

I can write this post in Chinese and coupled with the emotional music which cause my tears drop but I didn't. Because there is no need.

I am fine here, I am a grown man and I can take care of myself.

I went to Aldi by myself today. I never realize I will be better off alone, as I do not have pressure to get some awkward perspective from friends of me going for the cheapest thing every time, never mind their brands, tastes, qualities.

So, do not like me? problems?

Fine. Echoing those famous quote from internet:' I never wake up every day to impress you.'

I have my own best buddies who really matter to me, and I believe you too.

So, get a life:)