first day in october

1/10/2009 11.20pm


dude..its october now...time flies...

raining now..drizzling outside i think..it seems i can get a good night sleep today..haha

today 1 more person found this blog..my college friend..haha..really worship n salute him. according to him, he read all those post that i wrote in chinese..he can nearly tells me all the content here..fanstatic...anyway,1 more reader here..hmmm....now look like its almost times for me to set this blog to 'private'..well, see how things go later...

yesterday n today, trust n tort teacher just release our class much earlier than usual..trust yesterday even 1 hour earlier..ha..good thing for me too..not much to study yet..though i dun think i will..haha..anyway, hopefully i can be really hardworking in year 2...rejected Cardiff...still have to set Cardiff as my ultimate goal..besides LA and Germany^^

my friend told me to listen 'when there was me and you' by vannessa hudges from HSM and study about the lyrics...he said the whole situation is just similar with me and H...

seriously?

anyway, who am i to care?

to my dearset H,
though i let myself believe that miracle could happen, i know it forever won't..

you will be my forever fairy tales, though i m always wishing it to comes true..
someday,somehow...

you know what..

sometimes,
i wish i could tell you so many things that how much i want you to know...

but i wont make my move...even one step forward...without courage...

matter now is, i m not posseing any courage...

though i let you become my fairy tales, i know i will still hope it will always comes true...too

but fairy tales will still remains.....

as a fairy tales.


found out something great for me when i going home from college at 7pm today...on the bus, i m trying to recall all those memories with H..when there was me and H...i never thought i can be so hypnotized...

keep on thinking my feeling towards H...wat will all these bring me to?

trying to pull myself together...

at the moment i stepped down from the bus, an exhausting body with an exhausting mind...

i realise, i can forget H, if i really want to...

no doubt on that...

if i really could, i would.