I am not on your Facebook page on daily basis anymore! I even forget that it was such a thing that I did every time I was on Facebook.
Maybe, just maybe, perhaps, my feeling towards you, has eventually, gradually, tardily started to fade away.
Although you replied my sincere concern about your statute book problem on the first day of exam AS A FRIEND which I never expect a reply, although it took a few days, although it gave me a surprise but anyway, the thing is, I NEVER EXPECT YOUR REPLY AND I DID NOT FEEL A THING EVEN IF YOU REALLY DO NOT REPLY.
Maybe I can say, at this point of life, I am so over you right now.
Nope, don't tell me it is a tell tale sign about anything although what happens between us, the tempo, the pace, the story is coincidentally incidentally similar as the development of my favorite German TV series. (Did I mention that you look alike with one of the actor inside or maybe that is why I have crush on you, I don't know.)
Well, I am still under my extreme exam stress and great pressure of my current uncertain life. I got no time for you or the thing like that right now. Also, YOU are precisely exactly the thing that I do not need right now. I don't know if the feelings has faded away, for real, or it was just suspended. Anyhow, at least I am not really obsessed with you, bugged by anything about you anymore right now.
Yes, I kept emphasized on 'right now'. I do not know what's going to happen next, no one can tell.
Whatever it is, I just hope, besides my damn 'hanging in the middle of no way' life turns better and well, you and me(of course including my exam), just forget everything that had happened, leave the rest to whoever or whatever in control. We never know what will happens, so we just go along the ride. IT will leads our way. If we are lost, we will find our way back.
US, YOU and ME, just have to back to the starting point again, take the first step, to be a friend, from start, in the first place.
RESTART OUR LIFE.
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