YOU

Alright, I totally don't understand, especially YOU right now.

I went to LiDL with bunch of my friends, on the way back home, we came out from LiDL and I saw you, coincidentally walking towards my direction, but not me.

It is a rainy day, it was drizzling.

I know you saw me, I saw you too. At first glance I can't really recognize you, but after I took my second look, yeah I am sure it was you, wearing a jumper short pants covering you head with the hood.

I saw you and frankly, I wanted to talk to you, at least take the initiative too, that is what I have been thinking. and decided all these days.

Unfortunately, I can tell, you pretend like not seeing me, man, what do you expect I can do then? Stop you and say hi and talk to you? ( Yeah maybe this is what I should do but I just don;t know how)

You are the one asking people around why didn't I talk to you anymore and now when you see me, you pretend like not seeing me and just ignore me every time. What do you want exactly?

So we just passed by each other, side by side, just like that.

Alright, look, I know maybe it was my fault in the first place, and maybe that turns you into my enemy with full of hates on me or whatever.

All these days, I knew, I realize there is no point doing this, I have make up my mind, to talk to you, although I am not sure if I have the guts.

It was not the first time now when you and me bump on street and we pretend like strangers.

Trust me, I really wanna talk to you now, I really do.

After all these days I spent time thinking, I really can't give a damn shit to what happened before. It is totally up to you now.

Everyday I go to class, I have been thinking how to open the conversation although ends up nothing. Probably I do not have the guts, or maybe you just don;t give a damn shit to me too now.

And you missed class sometimes, including today, after I have also made up the same mind to take the courage to talk to you, but we ran into each other and you pretend like nothing.

Well, seriously, I really can do nothing about it.

I have sent facebook message to you, few times, although only once which is the latest to ask you if you wanna talk about it, talk about us. As I expected, I don't get a reply and now you showing me your face like that every time we see each other. Sorry, I really don't know what do you want.

My friend said every time he saw us, we were just showing the grumpy face each time we saw each other. I am not sure about this, but whatever it is, I really have ran out of ideas.

Maybe it's your turn to hate me now.

Maybe you are trying to avoid me, which I don't know why.

Or maybe you are showing some temper tantrum or whatever you call it to me.

You know what, I won't be saying I don't care, in fact I do.

I just don't know what to do about it right now.

It seems like the whole thing is not only within my manipulation as it was.

It's not like I can change the whole position right now.

The end.