Moody day...

1/9/2009 1:28am

wow...its september...

really a bad day for me...today i din went to malacca just because of really thought today i got to give tuition at night...but man!they come back at 6pm something, i can go with them actually cz i can come back for tuition on time...plus,when i reach d tuition center,only i get to know that today dun hv tuition class!!!Wat the......no one tell me about this...

the moment i step down from the car,i received a sms.i look at my hp,got 2 sms.wat a suprise,finally,i got a earlier text (7.23pm)from the person i mentioned(hereinafter referred as 'H')!!!!
H said in the text, was outstationed...i see,it clear all my doubt before this.H was outstationed for both days i called...yes, it could be with family, or even with friends..but why do i care?
really suprise n it smile from bottom of my heart when i saw the sms.ya,i m happy about that. well,thing doesnt goes well all the way through, after hv a few sms with H, finally discovered H already in relationnship with someone. ya,its hurt..but weird, its just for a while...how come?
H start exam tomolo.i offered myself to send H home cz i was thinking of going back to skol tml too. but it seems thats some misunnderstanding when communicating thru sms..i dunno whether H wanted that...H din reply...anywhere, finally i text H at 10.44pm..telling him i cant make it cz i m not sure if i got a car tml...

tml,i got nothing to do.originally, i tot i can start working..but who knows, now they said havnt confirm yet..some problem that they have to settle...so,i got nothing to do tml..again..feel like going to H's house to help H to revise..but not sure..its just dunno how to face H...but one thing i sure...i do miss H...a lot..

went to 'yamcha' with Li Ching...first time i be a little bit more honest to her though not totally by telling by feeling right the time..i din really talk about that even with my closet friends...its just i hv no clue how to get thru these or how to face these..and i hv not prepared to face n tell all thesee in front of ppl...all this kind of feeling just got me messed up...which i cant really tell what m i feeling now..

but at this moment, a feeling seems bothering me so much...i missed H..I really can't stand it anymore...trying to endure as much as possible whuch this is the only thing i can do at least for now...





I love you,H!really..i feel it n i mean it.....seriously.....