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8/11/09 7:35pm

a few post in one day..=.=

ya..jx called gain n told that he 'lost' in the case infront of police..conclusion..he and his fren will pay for the re-paint of the car which the part was scrathed but not whole bumper...so RM90 divided by 4 i think..but anyway, i still think that there is a chance to argue 50-50 since no one kno who fault is tat. even go to ct, i think the car rantal bare the burden of proof as claimant and i think he cant prove it.anyway, what is over , its over. let it be. take it as a lesson. cheer up man! good luck in ur exam on wednesday!

haiz...i really couldn't fight against that feeling....now that stupic crushing feeling seems more serious and bothering me even more...i wacthed that German show just now and that's the episode showing the church and i remembered i saw some of the 'behind the scene' when they shot in the church on a particular website yesterday. today i tried to look for it again..but nothing's there.weird.mayb look for it again later..but shit..if i do tat, probably the stupid crushing feeling will get worse....

gosh..saw all those picture! they' re damn freaking hecking attractive man.....really hooked by the show..but what a silly move or thing that having crush on artist.......STUPID!

i found out country like USA and Germany, those actor used to take up acting course before becoming an actor. unlike malaysia, this course have never been encouraged by parents. although Germany n other countries eg in Europe their actor wont get such exposure to the world like USA, but they can be pretty popular too due to the convenience of internet nowadays ie the german show i m watching now. the actor can travel around the world and well known just thru the spread of youtube. hmm...having a thought now...mayb when i really hv chance to be in US or Germany...mayb try to take up acting course as well and try to go for casting?(classic way as many actors did that too)then if i able to make it then the dream of meeting those actor i like sooooooo much recently esp the German one will come true!!!hahaha..i think even in UK, if i really able to make it, i can meet up with them too i think due to v r in the same industry..haha...haiz...but these is all dreams............

getting really down....because missing those actors...not sure if i be with H i will turns better..but for now...man!i seriously couldnt take it anymore....ARGHHHHHHHHHH....although keep on mention this is a silly act and i believe they look so good in front camera( show or photo) only because of make up and those editorial work...(cz i saw few picture that probably not as nice as they in the show and i saw the artist used to be a little bit fat last time in the show was not as attractive as now0..so i really srtrongly believe make up and editorial staff did a great job to make them look sooooooo good and attractive in front of camera.....but i just cant control to hook uwith them...even spending all day in front pc and watching their show, after switch off pc and everything goes normal, i will be so down as what i m being now..but i will still play their show and found out their interview, news etc on internet...

shit!!!!!this is really STUPID! 2 things i can do:1) REALLY try to get to USA or Germany or other Europe country-Germany is the best and try to get into casting and better still get into the particular show i m watching now(since i saw one of the interview the actor told that their show will constantly looking for actor thru newspaper or fan(fanpage i think), but it's in Germany...anyway, i will try to find out some way! so, i can meet them!!! or 2) forget them all. pray for the day to dissappearance of this stupid feeling.

it seems 2nd choice is more realistic yet hard to me...but now...once i think of christmas snowing and their face....ARGH!!!really hooked up with them..T.T

Gosh!i dunwan!STOP IT!it's hurt nad killing meT.T T.T T.T