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27/11/09 2:33am

it's late night...again..

it's fast that time passed...jiayu jiaxi got back last week..v met on thursday on k3k cafe..then jennyu got back from aussie on 23/11....erm..ya..then on 24/11 jx n jennyu's family plus me n jiayu had dinner together, just like wat v did last time few day after jennyu left for aussie...this time, as opposed to last time v went to jx hse for his kuih lapis, v went to jennyu hse..nothing..just chit chat..wif jennyu n jx family... till late night.

thusday till saturday this week..i will b home alone....whole family went to langkawi, since friday is public holiday...i wanted to join them initially..but finally i did not cz dun wan to skip thursday evidence n tort class...haiz...i should hv followed them..

today the first day, but it is still ok. i went to office on the morning, then rush foor classes till 7.45pm reach home. then out for dinner. tot of jx had cancelled the movie cz he did not call me to confirm, but when i just went for dinner he called saying the movie plan is still on. so after they went to mv to try to make any ticket, then plan to move to pavillion or times square n i rush home after dinner n shower then check online for the seat....they decided not to go. then i change my cloth back to normal.then they call me to go out n ask me to change back to outing dress cz they most probably going for club....who knows, finally v went to ajimal cz jiayu cant go home late today...so, jennyu, jiayu, jiaxi n kitwan plus me, went to ajimal...it seems like i purposely change my outfit just for ajimal =.= haha..funny..then since i online just now..i resume it after i reach home till now...

tml they are going for clubbing as well..yes, i wana go though, but mab not with them, i mean the freinds that go together with them....simply becz i really can't mix up with them esp go to club...mayb it's my poor socialize skill...gotta fix it..

ya, i called seok fang jz now. v chat for a while n probably friday will out with her a while using the excuse that i lend my pc for her to online to check her result ^.^...then she ask me about the work for concert...erm..since i got nothing to do on saturday...just go with her...accompany her ba...doesnt matter jiayu jx kitwan going or not...

originally khailang will come to my hse to accompany me tonite n probably overnite..but due to i out with 3+3, erm, just ask him wake me up tml morning n come to my hse...n probably overnite here tml ba after his work^^

ya, that is all my plan on this 3 home alone day...even no all that, planning to study at the first place, but my mum just bought few hot TVB drama n a singapore comedy...haha..i can watch those for this three day as well if i will not be going out on the coming three days...haha

so...honestly...it has been an exhausting day to me...sleepy...but no mood to sleep......probabaly haven't watch the German show. n, to b very frank....just duno y..i m very down...since after i went out with them...erm...mayb it's midnite now n i will start acting emotional...worse when i m listening to music...

down...because i m missing H? probably..i m not sure....
just feel so lonely every mid nite....
i kno it's time for me to get one. but it's all out of my hand. i did want to. but all the surronding circumstnces doesnt seems allow me to do so...
i text H asking about the SPM at the moment i went for dinner. no reply, that's wat i expected.
but anyway, to be true, i miss H. really. besides those Germany n US artist.
if one day i got to Germany or USA with H together, i think it's the best thing ever happen in my life. meeting those artist? gosh!it's just perfect my perfect life.

i m addicted to German n US artist right away ever since i saw them, esp German.and, i m obssessed with H. why? even myself can't believe it!



everyone that really wana kno , listen. it's not my control that i remain single now. just everything doesnt goes right for me as they go.
and H, if u wana kno, i m so obssessed with u right now. i love you. i kno u dunwan to. but i din mean to as well. u hv stolen my heart. missing someone that u did not mean any single thing to the person, it's hurt, it's killing me.





just one thing i doubt, one thing i consider, one thing makes me hesitate, one thing makes me wonder, one thing makes hold my step: will everyone stop justifying my life, as they ever do, if, i turn into a relationship?

i just don't kno.