sunday afternoon

8/11/09 3:39pm

a lonely sunday afternoon...

mayb yesterday nite was told tat H's 'H' will b with H this whole day...so besides H, can't think of some one i feel like meeting now....so, rather be at home and doing nothing here.

today morning 10.47am was woke up by jx's mum call regarding jx case yesterday...she called twice..hahaa...she told me she worried if jx can speak well in front of police..well, i think tats not a worry for me..he can cope that very well...in the afternoon, jx called n told me the car rental really as what predicted wana him to compensate whole bumper...gosh..it's crazy...so around 2.30pm ++, jx called me telling me he is in the police station n making report...waiting the other party to come...accordingly, the police took the stand that supporting jx..well..if tat's the case..it will b great....i think he will call me soon tell me wat's up or even i will do that if he dont call...anyway..wishing him gud luck...

now...loading the German show on youtube...i know i will miss those artists very much again after watching tat..even now the crushing feeling hasnt gone off yet...anyway....until and unless i was accompanied by H, i will stop watching it or at least stop missing them...gosh..it's killing me and i m suffering cz of that..i can't take it anymore! i dun wan all these...but, holy shit! it's all out of my hand!!!

i kno there is a saying:"love is the force of nature." yes...totally agree...but i just do not have the courage at all to tell H about it...not after what i got after i hinted so many things on msn yesterday......and i juz kno...like what i said..our relationship just won't work..or even can't have a start.......

and, probably love is really blind...i just cant figure it out y i can fallen for H...so deadly...

H,

you know what.?! i miss you soooooooooooo much more than eveything i ever do...
just like what i m missing those USA and Germany artist,esp Germany...but i believe this 'crush on somebody i dun even stand a chance to meet them' will gone off., totally, if i m with you...but i kno being with u just another impossible for me...

here is a fact....you may wanna deny it soooo badly...or even evryone feel like doing so....but not me..i just can't....

i love you.this is the fact.