is it me? is it for real?

28/11/09 11:16pm

that's the question i have been asking to myself now.

yesterday, i blogged a lot. i was thinking of go and not to go for clubbing all day long. on the evening, i saw jx still online. so, thinking i can still tell them i will join them. but 7pm, he offline. the time i thought, ya, i wont be going this time alhtough it's really a right time for me to go, due 1) i m home alone, nobody will realise n nag on me if i go home late 2)i m 20, i should go n experience myself at least once, just to discover, what is clubbing. 3)sheauyeong n liching encourage me to go, even sheauyeong, she said she will consider going if she free, never tot she will say that cz she is not that type of person.4) if i m so into US and Germany, either for their country or the particular artist, i gotta adopt n adapt to their lifestyle, n clubbing is the most significance one. 5)mayb i think i will be bored cz of my poor socialize skill n i lazy to socialize, but shirley said she is same as me, only can mix with jiayu n jiaxi, n she is the first timer as well, just like me, hoping to experience ourself.

guess what, at arouund 8pm++, i saw jennyu online. asking him with the thought that they already went there, he said they are going at 9pm. so just chatting a little bit about clubbing later, i go for showering in case i decided to go with them, n finally at around 8.35pm i think, u kno wat, i decided to go. yes, jennyu cant believe it even myself too. he tot i m kdding him. but anyway, yes, i decided to go this time for so many right reason. but they are some transport problem then. thinking can jx car fit 6 n should v be 6 in a car n watsoever, after discussing with jennyu n jx, v got it sorted out. i drive the four wheel drive there. at first, i can tell, jennyu is a person that kind to his fren. he kno i m going, he kno i m not the type tat wana go clubbing, he kno who n how i m, he kno what's my position when i decided to go but got transport problem, he just understand me so well, when i tell him what me n jx think after thinking tat 6 youngster not gud to be in a car midnite, he said:' tell jx, don't worry, just fetch 6 of us to KK and i will change to the other car(whichever call that are going)'

it's nothing for him though, i was so overwhelm when he said that. i realise how he treat his fren, i realise how lucky i m tat i can hv such fren. but anyway, if he change to other car, how about jiayu that be in jx car n with the thought tat jennyu n be together with her in jx car. all that happen just because i said i wana go at the last minute. jennyu just keep on assruing me with 'dont worry, just hv fun'.man! thanks a lot, jennyu.

jx n i kno that i m the one who should change to the other car cz kitwan dont kno them well, bibian(jiayu kitwan UMS fren) dont even kno them n summore i tell them only at the last minute. during discussion, v thought of how about jiayu if jennyu change car, but jx did not say i should change the car, but i kno i m the most suitable wan. so finally, i offer that i drive the four wheel drive there. jx ask me to better inform jennyu about this to avoid he 'scold' me. ok, i inform jennyu.

but when i reach jennyu house, he ask me to get into jx car.huh?i tot i m driving to KL...but jennyu insist on that(of course i din tell the real reason i m driving), so finally got on jx car. when jiayu was told that jennyu changing car, i felt guilty. really. but fortunately, i dunno whether did she kno jennyu wana change car, one of the reason is cz of me, she is fine with it. she said it's ok cz jennyu havent meet them after get back from aussie, jennyu would like to chat with them. mayb jiayu kno i m causing jennyu to change car, but she said nothing, she din even say a single word about me n put the blame on me or jiayu kno i would not like to change car cz i m not really close with them compared to jennyu(probably she din think of these though) but either way, gotta thanks jiayu here oso.

finally, jiaxi driving all us there by following qing yao's car. ya, hv to mention, among few of us, jx is the one who always be the driver n picking up n sending everyone home n din even complain anything.

this time, i just feel i m so lucky. in just a short while, i can see how my fren can understand me n tolerate with all these. thank a lot jx, jennyu jiayu.

all these while, i hv not been thought that i m so lucky like what i feel right now.

finally, after a 'whole tour' of KL, we reach the club. the name of the club is 'popitt'/ 'pompitt' i think. (found out, it's 'poppy'. and the whisky we drank- 'chivas')not really sure. get inside, wow, that's first time i get into club. those who r experienced settle where v the bill n where we sit, i m just along the ride. i tot i won't get drunk n i will get bored. but man!when the drinks come, i strted to mix up with them. at first i was just chitchatting with shirley jiasen bibian....but later, i drink more n more, probably they are forcing everyone to drink te whisky straight away, about 12am ++, it's time for me to feel sleepy normally, but this time, i can feel not only sleepy, a little bit dizzy. mayb sleepy is the cause at the first place, but anyway, i think i m going to b drunk soon (i think i mt the fastest who got down,haha, but acc to shirley, i din look like drunk even till today she said tat)i can feel tat i got no energy to stand, i m little bit within my control but when i start to speak, the words coming out from the mouth got a little different in my mind. man..finally i understand all these drunk condition.i was a little worried that time cz i assure jx that i wont get drunk cz i m so sure, so i can still drive in case he get drunk. n it's first time to feel dizzy cause of alcohol like tat, i afraid i will tell some secret that i hv been keeping for so long. jennyu ask me to take some ice. later, i start seeing everyone getting high one by one, they starting to take ice n lemon, according to kinleong, taking non alcohol can at least reduce the alcohol effect. so i just did what they did.

(ya,what a coincidence, i met with a primary skol fren there. he called me at the first place. so suprise that i can meet him there, though v r fren in fb)

as time goes by, everyone getting higher n higher. they start dancing, tossing, n keep on forcing ppl to drink...haha..even myself...v dance...especially them...haha, i can tell that all those moement is under alcohol infuence cz normally they wont do that. haha, funny, qingyao drag me n hold my hand up n dance..haha..n when they force me to drink when i started to get drunk, i refuse by telling them i gotta drive later, but cheesiang told me no worry, v will yumcha later to let us awake from the infuece of alcohol.i forced by them to drink the whisky straight away about three times=10 minutes ++ i think. some even more.

at the mean while,some couldnt take that anymore. apparently, after u drink, dun try to sit, go move n dance as u like so u wont 'suffer'. so what i can see, some was dancing n some was resting and some even puke. cheehong vomit a lot. jiaxi did vomit. that's ppl who down at the very start.at the end, jiasen n jennyu sat doen after dancing, they felt very suffer that time. trying to vomit, trying to make themself feel better...

later, i stop feeling dizzy but when i walk, i can feel that i couldnt walk straight. as a conclusion, everyone just rest, dance , rest , dance...ya, some of them smoking.later i saw few of us went to the dancefloor.

the club close at 3am. v rest a while inside the club then when got chased out, v waiting outside the club while waiting some of them to pick up their car. i can see jennyu n jiasen still very uncomfortable. one more, cheehong. he said duno y this time he just cant take it. so i told him i was home alone and it's fine for me if he wana sleep in my hse. so finally, v decided that i drive his car to my house and he just sleep with me.

before get back my house, v went to KK. by the time i pick up cheehong car with him, other was left. usually this is their practice after clubbing. get to a shop to grab a bite, mayb it's to help in the heatlh sense. probably reduce the burden of our organ. when i n cheehonng reach KK, jennyu jiayu kitwan bibian and cheesiang was not there. apparently, jennyu is so unokay till he gotta go home. so kitwan drive jx car to his house. without waiting them to get back, those in KK again decided go to not second but third round-jennyu house.
but shirley kinleong n shengeu go home tat time.

cheehong said just follow them n if they wana stop by in jennyu house a while, he will follow. so i drive him there as well. yes, jennyu home alone too. haha.tats y we went there. boy continue chatting in living room,some went showering, haha, this is first time that i can discover what their topic like, cheehong slept, since i was sleepy n just listening to them without talking, i slept, just for a while. then i went upstair to chat with girls. then i got down again.i wanted to ask cheehong to go to my hse so tat he can even myself can sleep , at least in a proper way n on bed. but since he was sleeping, i just let him be cz duno how to wake him up. finally at 6am ++, they decided to go their own way, means go home. n, sleep.

after got back home, cheehong just sleep straight away after he change her pants. i went to brush my teeth n wash my face n gosh...i saw some blood when i gargle. finally i discover my tongue was bleeding. n my whole mouth makes me feel pain. probably is due to that i ate too much ice and it's too cold for the mouth n tongue to take it, so it hurts my mouth. it is still hurt until now.

it's raining at the time v wana sleep. when i got on bed, i tot he slept. suddenly he said wat take me so long to finish showering. (but i din shower)haha...yes, v slept on my bed in my room.anyway, with his gel-ed hair n unwash face n mouth, v slept. at 10.48am ++ i woke up a while n n awake for a while while all the time i slept. i realise that it's like i m taking the whole bed n he's forced to corner n cannot move by me. pai seh pai seh.until 1pm++ the next day, i gotta wake up cz originlally i gotta work in lin yi lian concert with seok fang n laitoong at 3pm. so i hv to wake up now cz i havent fold the shirt that was already dry since morning, n i gotta wash the cups, boil the water, mop, sweep....

leaving chee hong alone on the bed, i get up n do all this house work with the intention that finish it so that i can get to the concert on time. but who knows, in the middle of the process of doing hsework, i check my sms n found out the job cancel due to the agency quarel with the organizer=.= i should hv seen this earlier so that i would not hv to wake up so early(it's already afternoon though)what to do, i m already in the half way. so thinking gotta finsh it n in case after that cheehong hasnt wake up, i gotta ask him do him want me to cook something for him as i plan to cook some mee as 'brunch'. n he can continue sleeping until i finish with the cook.

so when i m mopping my living room, (almost dome my housework), he woke up n came down without his shirt.=.= later, while im m done with the mopping of my kitchen n housework, he ask me for towel. so he wanna bathe. he said probably everyone still sleeping cz no one pick up the phone.while he bathe, he got few call in his cell phone. ya, i din pick up on behalf of him.later he told me that kitwan called n told him they r going sunway n he ask me if i wana go. he said v can go pak tor there n i reply there is so many ppl how to pak tor n he say can de..=.= anyway, i decided not to go sunway with them. ya, probably spend too much money for clubbing.

so he send me to jennyu house to collect my car. luckily it was not stolen.on the way, he asked me if i wana grab a bite but i tot they wana eat in sunway. then he said yesterday already spend a lot, gotta save some today.haha, i see there's actually somebody ha a same tot with me.then without deciding whther wana eat to together or not, the conversation just end.=.=v saw jennyu n jiayu getting inside the car. i see, jennyu is not going, only sending jiayu there n they said jx woke up not long ago as well, the time is about 2.30pm that time. then i asked cheehong is he the only boy there, he said cheesiang was there waiting for him.i see.so,drive to sunway n meet jiayu n others there after dropped me. i told him dun betray mein sunway.haha.when i got down from his car , he said'good bye darling'.=.=anyway, jennyu said he called me just now, i tot he called just to tell me they r going sunway.he is actually not. he wana ask how i get to his hse to collect my car since he is out there he can give me a drive. he duno cheehong went to my house. before he leave for sunway, he asked me with the weird tone n look' u sleep with cheehong?' i said yes n he give me the weird smiling=.=so lets continue to b funny with him, i tell him n jiayu i n cheehong are couple n yesterday v already....u kno..haha... i tot he kno cheehong went to my hse, ya, now i realise he was not there everytime cheehong answering the question where he gonna sleep yesterday nite.

so that's end for this story. i went to sheauyeong hse to collect my notes n then back home then n continue with my home after buying roti canai back home n watch the tv drama due to i cant get a accompany to hv lunch together after i tried to call so many person, probably it's already about 3.30pm.the time is odd.should hv decide with cheehing tat i eat with him togeher before he get to sunway.

this is the longest blog i ever posted. i took approximately 3 hour to finish this. but anyway, put it in a nutshell, clubbing is not a bad idea for me. i pretty enjoy it. i will definately club again. everyhting happen yesterday nite till today morning, i m still obssessed with it n it's so unbelieveable for me. it's like a ....dream? not sure....ya, anyway, i m trying my best to get over with H and German US actor, n at least for now, mayb i succeed.

so, is it real me from last nite 9pm-today 3.00pm?