midnite again

8/11/09 2:19am

again..this is midnite...

anyway, not a great nite for me...today..a harsh day...

just hang up jx's call. yes...just at the moment i decided to have a nap(probably it's sleep cz it's ady 12.20am) while waiting my pc to download those song...jx called. ya...he called saying he's facing problem/confusion/dillema....cz he rented a car but innocently told by the car rental that he cause a scare on the car which is vry vry, even not obvious at al...either way...i gotta help him with my limited knowledge..he called mayb due to i m a law student, or probably i met a car accident last time n i had similar experience...anyway, most imoportant...as a friend...especially 3+3..have to try my best to help him out.on the phone with him about 35minutes, then i asked wai hong(my classmate) for help. he's kind, although i m asking help from him, but he is the one who call me..so pai seh..then he asked some fren's that being together with him at that moment for some opinion as well. then, i called back jx n on phone about 19minutes i think...anyway, hopefully i did help out at least a little bit....jx felt sorry for calling me in the middle of night and interrupt my sleep, and wai hong felt sorry for giving me useless answer(tat's what he thought)..anyway, nope..waihong did help a lot..i owe him this time..but he is the one who said if i owe him this time then he owed me many times before this...i dun think so..anyway, frenz...gald to have him to be one of my college frenz....for jx..man! dun feel so awkward for doing this....i will only be angry if u dun call me this time because of this! gotta sleep later..probably not cz of that case, i m already in sweet dream..but it's ok, i m fine with it...weird?that's y my mum always scolded me cz she think i m tooooooo kind and generous to friend even compared to family...anyway, this is who i m and i had no explaination abt that..frenz..especially important fren...for jx even 3+3..i will always take it as my close family member...frens are to appreciated when u r having them...^^

second thing, i msn wif H...told H probably go to H house tomolo...was told H's 'H' was there..i think since yesterday...n the 'H' will only left on monday morning when 'H' father fetch 'H' to school...ya...its already normal being for them to spend nites together....n i think 'H's already so close with H's family..msn wif H, hint something to H and finally got to know even sure that our relationship are not going to work....not even have a chance to have a relationship...the 'happy' feeling that last for approximately one week since that day i bring H to astro gotta stop here...i hv to pull myslef out of this..sweet dream to me though...it's still only a dream...

tml...i think can't meet H since the 'H' is over there..

last but not least....oh man!i can't take it anymore..the 'crushing' feeling on thse USA and Germany actors are really killing me...esp Germany...this feeling had faded away and is fading eventuallyand i tot i m going to over it but shit! unfortunately today all these came out again....really have totally no clue what to do with these....having a crush on somebody(more than one, n what funny is, they're artists=.=) that i din even stand a chance to meet them is just soooooooo getting me out of my mind....gotta be some way for me to out with it....plz..God..help me out...i dont ever want to get into all these again! dun get me involve, deeper for now...plz..i beg...sincerely...what can i do................



a day that three significance thing happen to me back to back....gotta take a deep breath....lew cho kang! move on! no more H! no more artist no matter USA or Germany!!!it's silly to have those stupid feeling bothering u!!! it's over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i hope one day i can scream all these out loud...at least this is what i tot for now....